This is my new family...
They all surrounded me, and I looked at them, I haven't spent time with them really, have I?
"Hey do you guys want to do something before I start school in a week? We could do things individually, if that makes sense, so like tomorrow, me and Louis can go bowling or something?"
They all nodded, so we made some arrangements and everything, but Louis wasn't free the next day, so we decided that me and Zayn would do something, he decided to take me to town, and to the cinema to see Catching fire. I've not really even spoken to Zayn that much, so I was really looking forward to spending the day with him! We all went and sat in the living room, and we watched 'The Notebook' my all time favourite film, It was gone 11 by the time it finished, and I fell a sleep on the sofa, my head on Liam's chest, I felt him pick me up, which woke me a bit, he put me into my king size bed, and tucked me in, "Night Liam, love you" "Love you too Faye" I fell a sleep easily...
I was stood by the front door, someone ran through me all in black, no skin showing, My mum screamed, which made my dad run to her, he shouted, I couldn't make out the words, the man held out a gun, and pointed it at my mum, I screamed "STOP IT, NO PUT THE GUN DOWN PLEASE, DONT HURT HER" words started going around in my head 'Useless, worthless' BANG my mum fell to the floor "NOOOOOOO" I screamed, my dad swung for a punch but the man dodged, and ran for it, my dad followed him, I didn't know what to do to help, I was USELESS. I saw my dad running after the man who had speedily drove off, he reached the car but it span round flinging my dad onto the floor, crushing his skull as it hit the floor, the car reversed over his body, and drove off again. words were still in my head, USELESS, WORTHLESS, I stood there staring, at my mums body, blood pouring out of the whole in her chest.
I woke up covered in sweat, I cried a lot, but no one heard me cry, I couldn't handle all this pain, I wanted to end it all to see my parents again, and be with them again. I went into the master bathroom where I knew they kept all the tablets, I got my blade again, 'finally' I thought 'Its finally the end for me, I wont be in the way anymore' I went into the cupboard, I got out two pots of paracetamol each containing 60 tablets, 120 all together. I opened the lids, when I heard the door open, Zayn walked out seeing me, blade in one hand, paracetamol in the other.
"FAYE! WHAT ARE YOU DOING!!!" he shouted, whilst grabbing the tablets out of my hand next to take the blade. "I'm sorry Zayn, I just want it all to be over, I had a night mare, I could've stopped my parents from dying, but I didn't, Zayne, I just want to see them again, and say I am sorry" "Faye, babe, look" He said whilst sitting down next to me on the floor "The last time you harmed yourself, we told you to come to us, when you feel like doing it again, and you didn't, I am sorry Faye, I love you too much to let you hurt yourself, so if you dare even pick the blade up again, you WILL be over my knee, do you understand?" I nodded, he picked me up off the floor, and carried me to my room "Wait, Zayn, please can I sleep with you tonight, I don't want another nightmare" "Of course you can my little beauty, and I will tell Liam about this tomorrow, okay?" I nodded "Thank you Zayn" He put me into his bed and tucked me in, he got in the other side, and started singing 'That's what makes you beautiful' It made me giggle, I snuggled up to him, and fell to sleep within minutes, I woke up and heard Zayne and Liam talking. "I found Faye last night, out on the landing" said Zayne , "she had a blade and 2 pots of tablets, she had another nightmare, Liam." "What?!? Oh my god, I should've been there, I told her not to do It again!" " I know Liam, but I said to her that the next time I see her with the blade, that she'd be over my knee, we need to start enforcing the rules that we spoke about Liam, I know she's gone through a lot, but she still needs to learn from right and wrong. I love her Harry and I wouldn't spank her out of hate or anger, but outa love." "I know I know Zayn, but its so hard to see her like that, imagine how hard it would be for me to spank her when she's like this"
