I sliced my skin at least 13 times, in that one night, I lost count after that, I just did it, everything seems to be a blur, I must have fallen a sleep in the bathroom because i was waken up by the sound of Niall shouting my name, I didnt know what to do, what if he came in and saw me like this, blood all over my arms, and all over the floor, I quickly rolled down my sleeve, and it stung like hell, but al least now you couldnt see wht I just did to myself, but what about the blood on the floor? I wet a flannel and started to clean the floor, my hair was a state, but i didnt care.
"Faye?! Breakfast is ready sweety, come on" Niall said, I heard the door to me bedroom open and I shouted "Yeah one sec Niall just in the bathroom, be down in a minute" "Okay sweety, dont be too long, breakfast will go cold."
With that he left, I unlocked the door, and went downstairs in my pyjamas, the laughter comeing from the dining room was so loud, I took my seat next to Harry. "Good morning sleepy head, becaon?" said Louis, sat opposite me, I shook my head, "no thank you Lou, Im not really hungry, sorry" "Faye, you need to eat something honey" he said I shook my head again and said "No, I feel really sick, sorry Lou Lou" He put some bacon on my plate and told me to eat it, it might make me feel better. I picked up the piece of bacon, and started to nibble on it, I didnt even manage to eat half of the piece before i put it back down on the plate.
"Faye, whats wrong sweety, why arent you eating?" asked Harry "I feel sick, look I have tried, you cant say I havent"
"Come on Faye just the rest of that slice, and then you can go get washed and dressed" said Liam "Fine", I reluctantly aggreed, I had another nibble on the bacon, and started to gag, I felt so full, I took one more tiny bite, and through up.
"Oh my god, Faye are you okay?" asked Liam...
*Liam's POV*
"Oh my god, Faye are you okay?" I asked, I stood up and knelt down below Faye, her face as white as snow, I touched her hand, and it was freezing, her eyes were fluttering shut, I picked her up, and carried her upstairs her body lifeless, but still breathing, I too her into her bedroom, and out her into bed, I noticed her notebook, and picked it up, after tucking Faye in, and giving her a kiss on the head, I started to read what was in her note book, I know it was wrong. My mouth dropped open as I saw what people had wrote to her
' hey bitch, why aren't you coming out your room, scared of me? HAHA, I'm not surprised next time I see you, your gonna die, trust me, your a worthless piece of shit, nobody cares about you, why do think no body wants you to come out your room? I hope you starve yourself to death, cunt. No one wants you here, NO ONE. Even your parents left you, haha! no wonder there, I have lived with you for less then 5 weeks now, and I want to die, no, actually, because that would be a waste of someones life, but seeing as your a nobody, I think you should die. DIE BITCH!'
I was horrified, I flipped a page when I saw Faye start to wake up, I quickly dropped her note book and started to stroke her pale sweaty head, I could tell she wasn't very well. I was really concerned about Faye's health, so I called the doctor, she said she would come round shortly to see her.
I told Faye that I was going to go downstairs to get her a drink but she didn't want me to go, she held out her arm and tried to grab me, which resulted in her sleeve going up and showing her wrist. I saw every thing the scars, the blood. I fell to the floor and held her wrist in my hand, I kissed it, and got into bed with her.
"I am so sorry Liam, I couldn't stop myself from cutting" she said crying, I held her tightly, in a hug, and said "Shh, don't apologise baby, don't worry, we will figure something out, don't worry, baby, we will sort it out, just promise me, no more cutting, if you feel like cutting, come to one of us."
"I'll try Liam, I will, but I cant promise, because I cant stop myself sometimes" I kissed her head, and got out of bed, "Okay honey, I am going to get a cold flannel to put onto your wrist" I said tears forming in my eyes. I went downstairs, and the boys asked me how she was, I told them everything, they were all as shocked as I was, they told me to stay down here fore a bit and calm down. Niall took her a cold flannel, and a glass of water.
*Faye's POV*
I heard a knock on the door, and told whoever it was to come in, Niall entered with a glass of water and a flannel, he placed the water on my bedside table, and then asked for my wrist, I didn't want to show him, but I had to. He looked at it, and I could tell he was holding back tears. "I'm sorry Niall, really sorry" I said whilst he wrapped the flannel around my scarred wrist, he shook his head and said "No, don't say sorry, Its fine sweetie, don't say sorry, there's nothing to be sorry for" he kissed my head and sat on my bed, I heard footsteps coming up the stairs, and everyone came into my room, they all surrounded me. It occurred to me then... This is my new family.
