My lonely rope, begs for my company ( JSE x reader) *on hold *

Foregiveness?

(Y/n)'s POV

I wake up lying on my floor, hearing the silent whales of none other than... Sean.

'Why's he crying isn't he happy that he would've had signe all to himself?'

"You shouldn't have saved me."
2 years ago I would've shivered with regret down my spinal cord; now it just seems like a fact.

His body twitches at the slightest sound. Possibly trying to cope with the what happened, as I sat calmly and my face stoic.

'Hey maybe we should give it to my mom, she may know what it is!'

'Lead the way.'

"You don't love me let me go an even if you somehow still do you won't understand. This isn't something that can be easily be FIXED."

"Please let me help, I can change!"

I cringed at his begging, my fists clinched tightly to the point of them turning white.

"What lies you speak; even if you did you won't understand what you broke." Not a single tone of mercy could be heard.

"Please let me!"

"No, you'll only hurt me once again. Ignoring me entirely for 6 MONTHS!
Isn't something you can easily FIX."

Sean's POV

I watched her steady breathing; while I curled into my knees, my soft cries turning to whales. A sudden tug to reality.

"You shouldn't have saved me."

My heart died as she stated that, not the slightest emotion to be seen. My head instinctualy pulls to my knees, as my body continuously shakes in place.

'Mom, what flower is this?'

Her mom walked over to us; not a care in the world was planted on her face as she came to answer our question. Her mother laughed lights as if looking at the flower was supposed to be the obvious.

"That's a hibiscus flower. Isn't beautiful?"
(Y/n) nodes quickly yet diligently to her mother's question.

"Would you like to put it with momies other flowers?"
She banged her head again with the same quick tempered and delighted manner.

She gripped at the stem, walking towards her vase that sat upon the kitchen table; so it may too be engulfed in the bright colors and the sweet aroma that they led off.

"You don't love me let me go and even if you somehow still do... This isn't something that can be fixed."

Even when my head Hung in shame and tried so whole heartily to pay attention, yet it was divided among my body. I know I missed something I just had this feeling.

"Please, let me help, I can change!"
I yelled as my voice trembled. Oh, how pathetic this probably was for her to hear.

My head oh, so, desperately tried to look at her face, to see the her sorrow: anger, hurt. Her fists have turned white now.

"What leis you speak, even if you did you don't know what you broke." Please, show some mercy what I did was for your safety.

"Please let me!" I don't think I could beg any harder than that.

My head lifted to meet her dull, dreary eyes; no light to be seen.

"No, you'll only hurt me once again. Ignoring me entirely for 6 months, 6 MONTHS! Isn't something you can easily FIX."

(Y/n) POV

"I never wanted to leave you; I was forced. I would hold your hand till the end of time." Small water droplets pricked the corners of his eyes as he announced this.

My head lightened it's emotional load; just a little, hearing those words, but I know I can't fully forgive him yet.

"How were you forced?"

"Blackmail, threats: to have you gone. I did it to keep you safe. Please, forgive me." Worry planted on his face.

"Forgiveness this time isn't cheap; fix what's broken first."

"What's been broken?" Oh, how could he be confused or maybe he doesn't see the obvious answer.

"Fix it first then I'll tell you... How much of yourself did you give her jack?"

"Not beyond kissing. Holding her hand was freezing to the touch."

'Can he be mine again?'