The Guy With the Vlogs // Heath Hussar

Vlog 28

My arm leans against the door frame of my room. Heath is still sound asleep. We were outside for a while. A long while. I was smoking for 5 minutes and kissing Elton for 10. Over all I'm a terrible girlfriend. Heath cheats on me with someone I don't even know and he was drunk. I cheated on him with Elton and I was sober. Yup, terrible person. I step into the room and close the door quietly so I don't wake up Heath. When I slip into bed, Heath's arm moves and turns on the lamp as he sits up. 

"Fucking hell," I say putting my hand over my heart. 

"What were you doing?" Heath asks and I shrug. 

"Just smoking, I needed it," I said and he motioned for me to scoot closer. 

"So why are you stressed?" he asks and I sigh. Well now I'm stressed. 

"I wasn't," I said and he looks at me raising an eyebrow. "I just wanted to smoke a cigarette okay?" I say sternly and he looks confused. 

"Autumn, what's wrong?" he asks and I shake my head. 

"Nothing, I'm fine-" 

"No, you're not. You look like you're about to break into tears," he said and I look at him. Fighting the tears. 

"I'm fine, Heath. Let's just go to sleep," I said and he sighs. Obviously not wanting to give up. But he reaches for the lamp and turns it off. 

~*~

The next morning, Heath wasn't next to me when I woke up. No one here but me. When I sit up, I have a pounding head ache. Dude what the fuck. Why am I waking up with head aches all the damn time. I sigh and stand up walking over to my dresser. I grab my clothes for the day and put them on quickly. I just quickly braid my hair and put on a bit of makeup. There is a knock at my door and I stare at it. Debating whether to say I'm getting dressed or actually opening it. 

"Autumn?" Zane's voice said and I shrug walking to the door. When I open it, Heath is standing there smiling. 

"But-" 

"Zane, yeah. I know. I told him to say your name so you would open the door," he said walking in and shutting it. 

"Oh," I mumble and sit on the bed. 

"You look unhappy to see me," he said and I shake my head. 

"Just still a little tired," I said and he nods. 

"Hey, we're going to be gone all day filming a video, we'll be back later," he said and I nod smiling. 

"Okay, see you later," I said and he kisses my cheek then walks out of the room. Quickly, I text Gabbie asking what she's doing today. She replies within minutes and, luckily, she's not doing anything today. 

'Good, can I come over? I need to talk to someone,' I said and she replies with laughing emoji's. 'Please?' I send and she agrees to let me come. I quickly grab my things then leave without anyone noticing. 

~*~

When I finished telling Gabbie what happened, she seemed shocked. 

"So why are you telling me this?" she asked and I sighed. 

"Because I don't think Liza would understand and not many other people are available," I said and she nods. 

"Now I don't really want a relationship, it seems too complicated," she said and I nod slightly. 

"It's okay," I said and she shakes her head. 

"You should tell Heath," she said and I raise an eyebrow at her.