the S.A.D club

Lonely

I feel so lonely, scared depressed.i cut my self to try and empty all the fear I have. I have scars everywhere. On my legs and my arms. I can't talk to a person normally anymore because I'm scared they will punch me or say things. I never went to school. " where's Aliyah?" "She's always fake sick." They don't know. They can never understand. I'm at a new school. I trust no one. I talk to no one. I'm alone I'm scarred. I sit in the back of the class never speaking a word. Whenever I did go to school I would sit in the bathroom sobbing because I don't want to be near anyone. The teacher notices my pattern and I'm invited to a small room. "Are you okay?" She asks me. "Yes." I lie. "Alright, I'm always here to talk." "Okay." I say back. I always stayed in that room. Doing homework and slacking off. People talked to me. I don't trust them. I know they will hurt me like everyone else did. I barely spoke a word. A girl. A girl comes in. She wears glasses and doesn't talk a lot like me. I notice and decide to talk to her. We hang out. Talked a lot. We saw each other after school. We skipped school together. We both have talked about why we have anxiety. She's different. I like it. I like her. She's the best person anyone can ask for. I haven't heard the word worthless for the rest of the year. When I'm with her. Everything goes right. I'm happy With her. And hopefully she feels the same. I moved farther away. But we always text and face time each other when we can. I love her. Sees the best person anyone could ask for.