the S.A.D club

Save me

Since I moved far away I don't go to the same school as her. I'm always alone but I always text her. I sit outside at lunch all the time. I get so self conscious I sometimes go home early and don't show up to my last class. I don't show up for a week. "Feeling better?" Where did you go?" All my teachers ask me. " yeah I'm better, im fine." Is what I say back. Lie lie lie again. I can feel it again. Worthless. All my teachers probably think I'm a skipper. I wish I had the confidence to tell them what's really going on so they can have mercy on me. But the anxiety kicks in. What if they think I'm weird? I cry before I go to sleep every night. IM SO LONELY. SOMEBODY HELP. SOMEBODY SAVE ME. I want to scream but I don't. Failing grades. School is hard. I'm in grade 10 now. And I'm still lonely. No one talks to me and I don't talk to no one. I'm lonely I sit in the library at lunch. Watching all the people have fun together. Don't trust anyone. I say to them in my head. They might just call you worthless.