Dizzee for Thor "The Get Down"

don't follow the footprints, they may not lead

"Are you and Shao... a 'thing' now?" Was the first thing Ra-Ra asked Dizzy as soon as he got him alone.

It had gone some days since the confession of the comic, and against his better judgement he had assumed Ra's anger would hold on longer. It wasn't exactly the question he had anticipated, but it wasn't far off from the one he desperately wanted to avoid.

"No," he answered carefully as the skin between his eyebrows creased. "Why the hell would you think that?"

"We found you sleeping together the other day.... It was in the traditional sense, but the way he was holding you didn't seem that, eh, traditional."

The words were rolling of his brothers tongue fast, but there wss nothing urget with look he gave Dizz. His eyes were filled with determination.

"He wasn't holding me. In every sense but in the physical world he was holding a pigeon."

Ra was looking at him with than expression he had come too be used to before a smile broke through his entire face.

"I never thought I would miss the alien part of you as much as I've done these past weeks."

They were quiet letting the roof top view of burning buildings fill the silence. Dizzee still felt the unsettling unease at the presence of his brother, but for a moment he let himself pretend that nothing had changed.

"I think Zeke is pretty good looking for a guy you know," Ra-Ra said breaking the silence after a while. His stance awkward as he tried to make those words sound natural in his mouth.

"..."

"I know it isn't the same thing like wanting to kiss him and shit, but there isn't anything actually wrong with it. I read somewhere that animals can be attracted to same sex, I figured seeing as animals are driven by instinct it could be just evolutions way of decreasing over population. It's most likely the same with humans too... Did you know that most cultures never really saw gender och sexual preference as am issue until they were colonised and converted? For example the Native Americans believed tha-"

"Ra!"

"Right. Sorry... you know I ramble when I get stressed or nervous. You been avoiding me so much that I just needed to get it all out in case you hit me with another shock or came up with some bullshit excuse."

Dizz didn't really have anything to say to that so instead he turned around and kicked something that probably had been part of the building at some point. The weariness and tension he had been feeling for who knows how long just hit him hard. Suddenly didn't feel like such a big deal anymore if Ra-Ra knew. It was so obvious now that he almost felt stupid for doubting Ra-Ra. His brother was the last person he should have worried about telling. Ra always found a way to support anything with reason even when it felt no reason could be found.

"There was this white boy..." He started sitting down on the ground. Not sure if he could say everything he wanted to if he caught one of those carts with a God on it.

Talking felt like one of those out of body experiences. Hos lips were moving. His eyes. His hands.

His being.

Everything that was natural for a human when they talked, yet his mind was rebelling. His body was there with his brother watching and catching every reaction to words he doesn't know he is saying while his mind wonders to fields of yellow grass. In his minds eye he sees pale green skies, strong trees and endless thunder as everything burns and rises.

He feels himself going further and further from his body as it talks and his body moves without permission and he walks through yellow strands. It would be scary if his mind eye could look away from the pale green. He doesn't hear what Ra tells him nor his own reply. Only that it feels like one second he his on the roof with his brother and the next he is in the tunnels.

"I'd almost given up," those words, or rather that voice is what finally wakes him up.

His mouth is open and his eyes wide as he is drag into a familiar corner and faced with him.

With Thor.

Thor's grip around his arm is harsher than he ever remembers it being, face holding an unfamiliar seriousness as his lips remained a tight line rather than the mischievous smile he gotten used to.

"I've been waiting for you."

"Why?" Is all Dizzee can think of asking at that.

"Why?" Thor mocked letting out a frustrated sound forcefully pulled his hair back with his free hand.

"Yeah. Why?"

"I thought you where different from the rest of them."

"....why were you still waiting if you don't believe that anymore?"

Pale green eyes met his for what felt like the first time. Thor ignored the way he flinched as he moved closer and gripped his jaw so that Dizzee couldn't look away.

"I fucking like you, Rumi."

I fucking like you too, he thought. Still not brave enough admit those words out loud.

"I like you to the extent that even when I genuinely tried to let it go when it became obvious that you didn't want be free. That you rather be this bleak nobody than let yourself just be Rumi I still waited. Fuck! I have come here every night since..."

Dizzee's heart hurt, and he didn't want hear anymore. He pushed forward against the hand on his jaw and the one painfully around his arm and kissed those very lips he hadn't for moment forgotten.

He had broken something between them, and this wouldn't fix it but he felt right for the first time since the fight with Boo. Even better as Thor's grip became harder as he pushed their bodies closer together.

It wasn't right but it was the further thing from wrong he had been since the opera.

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A/N sorry for the long wait. I have had a lot on my plate the last month or so and I ended up rewriting the half of the chapter I had already done like four times. Not completely sure if I'm satisfied but still happy enough because they are back together.

Lots of love for all of those who are still with me and to those who are new ♡♡

~ sweetiiey