I will find you, I promise.

Chapter 2

My eyes flicked open and I stared at the white ceiling, immediately recognising the nurses room.
"It's okay, i'm here." Miss whispered.
"What happened?" I mumbled.
"You fainted in class but don't worry about that. How are you feeling? You looked a little sick." She asked.
"Urm...i'm fine. Thank you but you should get back to class." I averted my eyes and held back the urge to cry.
Her hands pulled me to face her and she said "I'm not going anywhere unless you really want me to."
At this, I broke down in tears and wrapped my arms around her neck.
"What's going on with you, Bea?" She rubbed my back and wiped away the tears rolling down my cheeks.
"I heard Sarah in class, does it have something to do with her?"
I nodded and pulled my arms around my stomach.
"You can talk to me, I won't tell anyone. I know I shouldn't say that but this seems like something we should keep between ourselves until you feel comfortable enough to tell someone more senior." She smiled a small smile.
"Thank you." I smiled in gratitude and sniffed.
"Well, its a pretty long story and I don't want to bore you."
"You couldn't bore me if you tried."
I blushed and exhaled deeply.
Words starting flowing and her eyebrows creased at the sad parts.
"Can I see your arms? I had a feeling this was something deeper when you covered your stomach."
My eyes widened. "I-I don't think y-you want to see..."
"Don't worry, you don't have to if you don't want to." She placed her hand on my knee.
I rolled up my sleeve and closed my eyes.
"I'm sorry you feel this way, Bea. I know how horrible it is." She rolled up her sleeve to show the white, faded lines that scarred her wrists.
"Oh Miss..." I looked her in the eye. "What made you do it?"
"Bullies. Demons are strange things when you have no one left who cares about you. Your brain tells you that they will make you happy because they are your only friends and when you realise they don't care about you at all, that's the worst part. I started to believe them when they said I was fat and ugly so it got to a point where I was telling myself that I didn't deserve to be alive." She looked sad again.
"I'm so sorry. You are such a beautiful person inside and out." I smiled and held her hand.
"Thank you, that's sweet." She wiped away a tear.
"How did you stop?" I asked.
"My teacher actually asked and it went it a little like this. She asked me what was going on and I told her. I saw her everyday for 2 months until I plucked up the courage to go to the pharmacy and they gave me some anti-depressants. I'm 9 years clean."
"I'm so happy for you, that's amazing! Well done."
"Would you like to come talk to me each day? Or a set day each week?" She asked.
"I would love to, thank you." I smiled.
"I am free everyday apart from Thursdays so other than then it's up to you."
"My best friend has drama club on Mondays so that would be a good time." I said.
"Okay, is there anything you would like me to do right now?" She asked.
"No I don't think so, i'm sorry that you had to come away from class to deal with me." I frowned.
"Stop with that, its my pleasure i'm just glad that you're okay. I don't think you'll be spending any more time in the bathroom after lunch now?"
"I-urm-how-"
"It's okay people can mess with your head and get the wrong images of yourself which can make you do stupid things in the moment." She smiled and hugged me.
"Thank you again but I think it's time we went back to class, it's almost the end of the day." I said, pulling away.
"Are you sure you're okay to go in?"
"I hope so."
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We walked into class and everyone's eyes turned to me.
Some gasped.
Some laughed.
Some looked concerned, which confused me.
"Now, how much work have you guys actually done since I've been gone?"
The class looked down as I returned to my seat.
"That look isn't reassuring. I guess you can all pack away your things and wait for the bell."
Everyone stood up and packed away their books, while I replayed what just happened.
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*10 minutes later*
"Bea! Bea!" Charlotte shouted across the hall.
Shit.
"Hey. What's going on? Someone told me you fainted i'm class." She asked,  eyebrows creased.
"I'm fine, just tired that's all." I smiled to reassure her and linked my arm with hers.
"Seriously, Bea, are you okay?" She pulled me to the side.
"Yeah I promise." My eyes darted to the sides.
"Hhm whatever you say."
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A/N I hope you are enjoying this, I love writing it's just hard to find the time at the moment. I'm going to try and update once every two weeks if that's okay. Anyway, vote and comment ily 💕
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