Hate & Love

Jordyn ,

I look up aimlessly at the ceiling seeing the little white bubbles up there not making a sound not moving I wish I wasn't breathing but luck isn't on my side. How did it even come down to this cruel life I have I was only ever good to everyone I was a sweet child a good child a happy one but now time is slowly aging away at my awful life

As I start to sit up I feel pain all over my body I look down and see Black & purple bruises .... tears evidently fall down my face I start to stand to my own two feet but the pain is unbearable I manage to move along the stairs to get to the top and I push open the door careful not to make any sounds if anyone is up but as soon as I step out

" aye the fat bitch is up " my Unc J Says laughing

" op fat bitch ya hungry ?" My auntie keke ask

" N-" I was cut off

" well I honestly don't care yo fat ass don't need to eat no more anyway " she laughs

I sigh and head up stairs.. I go into the bathroom then the water on then strip and think about my life as the water runs down my body .....

I then hear the shower door open and in steps Unc J ... I feel his hands roam my body I cringe at his touch
I remember the first time this happened

" Auntie Auntie!" 12 year old me says running to her

" Hey sugar foot " she says smiling wide

" Look I got an 100 on my math " I say

" oh look at you all smart and stuff I'm so proud " she says smiling

I lived with my auntie keke since I was 9 my parents died and she adopted me then when I was 10 she got married to Unc J

For some reason he always scared me and creeped me out I wasn't an average 12year old I had hips thighs Booty & breast . So I was more bout then most females at my age

Later on that day I was playin with my dolls in my room my Unc J walks in I don't really admire his presence much so o usually ignore him

" Hey princess " he says

" Hi"

" wanna play dress up ?" He ask

I look up with excitement in my eyes !

" Yes !"

" Ok ok so we gone play mommy & daddy ..."

" Ok Unc J " I say smiling

" Now go take all your clothes off and then come back out so we can change ok ?" He says smiling

" Ok"
Me being young and not around that type of environment didn't know what rape was or anything of that sort

So I went and changed and came out naked

" like this Unc J?" I ask

" No baby I'm daddy remember " he says

" Like this daddy ?" I ask

" Yea baby just like that " he licks his lips

" now go lay on the bed "

I follow his instructions and lay there

I see him take his clothes off and he comes and hovers over me

He slowly puts his hands all over my body feeling every part of me

I start feeling uncomfortable
With the way he's looking and touching me