Dear Best Friend❤️

6. Proverb

[Chen Prov.]
It's been more than a year since we debut & I am glad that I could survive even though it was very hard. Me & Xiumin hyung has really struggle hard to survive & I am happy that we success. Since we are reuniting with EXO-K, I got much more time to spend with my Best Friend aka my crush. Yes, my first love or my one and only crush. I don't know how but I felt something in my heart whenever he is with me. I get butterflies in my stomach when he smiles. I love everything about him. His smile or you can say those precious lips is one of my favorite. I wonder when will I get to touch those lips with mine. *Hits in his head* Aish.. What am I thinking😅 I looks like I am prevert right now. Anyway back to my though. As I said that I am glad that I could spend much time with my Baekie (Ohomo... My cheeks.. they are blushing by his name) here but wait that doesn't mean I don't get to spend much time with him when I was in China.. No..No.. We were stuck in our cell phone just in Kik or Skype with each others but as you know it's totally different. Sticking in Cell phone to see his blur face & spend time with the real one is totally different. Even my heart gives another feelings when I am with him☺️(blush..blush) I am so happy that he never gets feed up by me because he is always there by myside. Since we have got closer to each others (much more closer), our members are anticipating it if we are dating or having a relationship. Damn, we never get a chance to talk about it.I really want express my feeling to older but I am afraid about it. Afraid of not loving back but afraid of losing my best friend or you can say my promised-friend (whom I have promised to be friend for forever). I really don't want it to happened😭 and as you know the other members have started calling us "Troll Masters" (in public) because yeah we are the true troll masters in our group. & they call us "ByunDae" in dorm. Since it was a ship name for Baek & me, I really love them calling it even though it sounds weird but I am slightly upset because I have never seen Baek's good reaction to it. Every time it looks like it annoys him & makes me feel upset & scare. Scare if he has got no other feelings then so-called Best Friend. I hope I can have some strength to tell him that I have fallen for him. I am totally scared & afraid right now but I am waiting for a perfect time & waiting for Baek's perfect hints for my feelings & I will express him. I hope some day. I am still waiting for that someday.

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