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Chapter 5

Eunmi's P.O.V.
I woke up to sunlight shining on my face. I was on my right side so when I looked straight forward, I saw Yoongi-oppa. He was hugging me and holding my hand. I chuckled.
"What are you looking at Lamie-Eunmi?" He smiled with his eyes closed.
"Lamie-Eunmi? Yah! What the hell is that suppose to mean?" I laughed.
"Your new nickname." Yoongi replied.
    "Wow, oppa. Such a nice nickname." She then rolled her eyes and laughed.
" I know. I'm the best right." He smiled and opened his eyes.
"Totally. But oppa. Why am I on your bed and not my own?"
"You threw up last night after seeing.....something." Wow. He acts like I don't remember. How cute!
"Oh. Well, let's wake up and get to the company." Today, Namjoon and Yoongi-oppa have to rearrange music for Jungkook. But while they do that, I will be helping them prepare music for their comeback soon. Jungkook was already practicing dance with Hoseok. Then, he goes to vocal with Jimin. After awhile, I got out of the shower and wore a pink pastel shirt and black ripped jeans with a black hoodie that said 'BangTan' on the front and my name on the back with the year 97'. The boys had gotten it for me. Me and Yoongi then headed out and finally arrived at the studio but before that we stopped by the practice room. I opened the door and saw Hobie and Jungkook dancing. I was surprised at how well he could dance. He was so good! Daebak! Earlier we had ordered food for them, so I decided to go in while Yoongi decided to go meet up with Namjoon. Knock. Knock. The boys stopped the music and turned around. I smiled. "Hey,oppa."
"Well isn't it our amazing little dongsaeng, Eunmi!" He ran up to me and put his arm around my shoulder and messed up my straightened hair.
"Oppa!"
"Sorry, sorry." He smiled.
"It's fine." I smiled back. I then looked at Jungkook and faked a smile. "Hey. Long time no see."
"Yea. How are you?"
"I'm good and you?"
"Good. Me and Eunha decided not to get married yet. We're so busy. She's in the states still."
"Oh. How's practice going?"
"Great! I'm practicing vocals in a bit. Are you an idol? Or do you just hang out around here?"
"Idol."
"That's cool. Ummm, can I talk to you later?"
"Sure. I'll be off oppa. Find me in the recording room. 'I Need U' will be done soon. So, I'll try and help with choreo." I waved and walked to the recording room. I saw Yoongi and Namjoon-oppa working together. I went in silently and headed straight into the recording room. I started to practice and PDogg-oppa recorded me. After recording, I went over it with Namjoon, Yoongi, and the other producers. They liked it so I decided to do another retake with me doing the guide. After 5 hours of recording, I finally took it to 'Hitman' Bang a.k.a the CEO. I let him listen to it and he said that he loved it. I was glad. I was only going to be helping with composing 5 songs out of the 9. We/they already composed 4. 'I Need U,' 'Fun Boys,' 'Move,' and 'Love is Not Over.' All we needed to do was divide the parts and record them and we were finished. Usually, I do the guide. If not, someone else does it. But, in this company. I usually do it so I'm busy most of the time. My comeback is planned for 3 months after theirs. My composer name is 린다 (Linda). Most people don't know it's me. So that's a good thing. I countinued to do my own thing until 3am. I was so tired. Then Jungkook walked in the room.
"Hey, Eunmi."  Well, this isn't awkward at all. I held it in and tried to be brave and not break down.
"Oh. Hey. What are you still doing here? Don't you have a photoshoot later?"
"Yea but I wanted to stop by and see Suga hyung but I guess he left." He said as he rubbed his neck. I was sitting on a spinny chair that I love.
"Sit down."  He then thanked me and sat down on the black leather couch.
"Eunmi, I need to talk to you." I chuckled.
"Well, we're already talking so go ahead."
"I'm sorry."
"For what?" Of course I knew what he was sorry for but I just didn't want to say it.
"Everything. Calling you a bi**h and more things. I'm also really sorry for not letting you explain. But, now I realized that and I would like to hear an explanation if you don't mind."  Did he really just apologize? Should I accept his apology? I mean he hurt me, really bad. Should I let him into my life, again? After all that damage? But, everyone has their second chances. I don't know. I decided to tell him the truth.
"May 12th. Jaebum forced me into kissing him. He pushed me up against the locker and gripped onto my hand. He was so strong that I couldn't let go. It was so hard for me. I wanted to be a truthful girlfriend, so I decided to go to your house and tell you the truth. By the time I got to your house, it was too late. I guessed that someone already shown you the video or photo. I didn't hear anything I was trying so hard to push him off of me. Jungkook-ah, did you know how miserable I was? I felt dead. Like I was not able to speak, talk, walk, anything. That's why I moved to New York. That's why your hyungs never called you. That day, I walked home in the rain. By the time I got home, everything collapsed for me. I cried so hard in front of all my oppas. Mostly, my brother. They wanted me to live a happy life so they decided to move all the way to the States. Now, here I am. Everyday, I still think of you. I missed you, Jungkook-ah. Really."A tear fell out of his eye and mine too. Suddenly, he got up and walked towards me. Then, he hugged me. I was shocked. He then started bawling his eyes out. I just stood there and patted his back.
"I'm-I'm so sorry. I had no idea. I-I-I'm sorry. I know its late but I'm sorry I didn't let you explain. I'm so sorry, Eunmi-ah. Please, forgive me." He continued crying on my shoulder. I started crying too. I missed him so much, I don't think he even knows.
"Jungkook-ah. Stop crying."
"You forgive me?" He asked. Really? Does he think he can get back to me that easily? Uh, no! I used to be easy but my life was ruined because of him. I'll give him a chance to make it up to me.
"No. At least, not yet. You want to make it up to me? I"ll give you a month. I'll give you a month to make us return back to normal. Just like a long time ago but, if that doesn't work. Don't even try again." He smiled and then hugged me tighter.
"I won't let you down. After all, we knew each other for such a long time! What's the first step?"
"No. No. No. It doesn't work like that. You have to figure it out on your own." He then smiled again for the second time. Man, his smile is so heart-melting. I thought.
"I'm gonna go. I'll talk to you later. In the mean time, I'll think about what I can do. Bye!" He walked out the door and waved.
What's he gonna do?