Everything happens for a reason (Lauren/You)

Chapter 11

Lauren and I haven't talked for a couple of days. I just feel so upset and mad at myself. Why couldn't I just let it go like she asked me to. I haven't texted her because I don't want to bother her. What if she doesn't want to be my friend anymore.

I was on my way to my usual hang out during lunch when I felt my phone vibrate. I didn't want to check who it was because if it wasn't Lauren my heart would break a little more than what it already has from the past few days.

Still making my way to my usual spot I started thinking. Why would she be so upset? Just because I told Dinah that she was the most beautiful girl out there doesn't mean that I loved her more. If only I had the guts to tell her how I feel about her, then I would. But if I tell her, she wouldn't feel the same and we would drift apart because she would feel weird talking to a best friend that has feelings for her. Like I said, it's better to have her as a friend instead of not having her at all.

I just don't get it though. Last time she didn't want me to call the other girl because she was scared I might forget about her and then she's so upset because I told Dinah she was beautiful. What am I missing? I didn't personally go and text Dinah telling her that she was beautiful. Dinah asked for my opinion. I just voluntarily told Lauren that she was stunning. Why didn't she mention that.

If only she knew I loved her more than a fri----

"(Y/n)" I heard someone calling me

"Yes?" I said turning around to see my old crush

She might be an old crush but I still get butterflies when I see her or when we talk I start blushing like crazy.

"Do you want to hang out with me?" She said

"Sure but umm let me just go tell my friends that I'm going to be with you today" I say looking im the direction where my friends were already in our spot sitting on the floor

"Okay I'll be waiting over here"

While i was walking towards my friends I took my phone out and saw that I had a message that I totally forgot about. I opened it up hoping that it was Lauren but it wasn't. I got to my friends and told them that I wasn't going to be with them today and that I was hanging out with another friend. They sent me sad faces with an ok, what can I say, I'm the life of the party lol ugh how can I joke at a time like this

I made my way towards Erica after

"You ready" she asked

"Yup"

"Okay so where do you want to go?"

"Anywhere you'd like" I said

"Okay then we'll just go under the staircase"

"Okay that sounds good"

Erica and I have been friends for years now not that close though we were just friends in school basically. I was in love with her for 3 years. In fact I stoped liking her a couple months before I met Lauren in person. Well at least I think I stoped liking her. I don't really know. She still gives me butterflies and makes me blush but I know I'm completely in love with Lauren. I want to be with Lauren. I want her to be mine and only mine forever but unfortunately she doesn't want or feel the same.

For the past two weeks I spent my whole lunch with Erica. I guess everything that I thought I didn't feel for her came back or it never left. Lauren hasn't texted me but Erica helps me forget about it for a while. She's been getting a little too touchy but I don't mind.

It was now Saturday and Erica and I have been texting non stop. She's made me forget about Lauren just for a little. I found out that she was a lesbian. I didn't even know!!! I thought she was straight all this time!