Hurt

Chapter 1

There was a time when you meant the most to me. I trusted you whole heartedly.

We shared stories and secrets. We had each others back. We were always there for one another. We stood up for each other. We went out together.  Did everything together. We were the most perfect example of best friends that everyone else wanted, what everybody could only dream about.

You hurt me badly. You got close to me to put me down secretly.You drove a knife in my back. You tried to bring me down. You tried your utmost best to get in my head. You tried making me think I was the crazy one. You wanted me to lower my standards to suit yours. You realized I was too good for you, so you tried every which way to make me stay. Well you might have succeeded if it was some other day, in some other time.

I revelled in sarcasm and you always had a comeback, those things were so funny back then, but looking back now, I can't help but wonder if all those remarks were really just for show or if they had a meaning...a secretive meaning, letting me know how you really felt. I didn't see it then, but I sure as hell see it now.

You know what's down right comical in all of this...you still have no idea that I know...that I know your true colours. That I know you have two faces. I know the real you and there's nothing that can convince me otherwise.

Do you want to know what's the best thing in all of this?  I've already moved on. I'm long gone there's no way that I'm coming back.

Sure, I'll admit it, I miss you... well not exactly you,  but what we had...the memories..I mean it's been years that we've known one another. It's just that people change and feelings fade. Yes,  I thought our friendship would have last thought eternity, but that was before all that I know now.

You want to know what's even crazier? I wasn't even angry when you did what you did..not even once. I never even cried, not once for you hurting me. I still wish for the best for you..up till this day..crazy right?! Even though you hurt me I still care and worry about you.

Do you want to know what really hurt me? The fact that you didn't even know that you hurt me...well at least I think you didn't know...hopefully you didn't know. Was it intentional? Did you really not care about me that much, to hurt me that badly?

Anyways it doesn't matter now. That was all in the past. I'm better now. I'm stronger than I was before because of you..so thank you for everything you put me through. I wouldn't be where I am without you. I also wouldn't be the personality that I am today without you.

My only wish is that you don't forget about me. I hope that I've left some sort of impact on your life, after all we've known each other other for so long. whenever you need something to smile about, something to comfort you, something to give you courage or just a memory...a good memory...me...remember me. I may not be there in person or by any reachable contact but I'll be there, forever locked away in your mind...and who knows, maybe still in your heart.