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Jessica in my eyes was sadistic, rude, and over all a bully. She was no better than a murder, a thief, a criminal of any kind. Jessica was my best friend at one point. Many even mistook us for sisters.
I know quite a bit about her, as for myself tho I kept my walls high and my guard higher. Don't get me wrong I didn't shut anyone out, though I was very careful with who I shared information with and when.
For example, I lived in a very very small town. Word got around fast, trust me I knew I was stuck in this town for my whole life. Nothing but farm land surrounding it, for miles and miles.
I had friends, and not all of them were great at keeping their mouths shut but few, and I empathize few, could when It came to serious matters or any matter at all.
One friend that was quite different than me and seen as a blabber mouth, actually nearly opposite of me was a great person to trust. She was rowdy and disruptive and she was very very popular knew almost everyone in town, not that that was an accomplishment. None the less I trusted her: Jayden.
Jessica and Jayden HATED each other. Jayden hated Jessica for the simple reason of her personality, she was one of the only ones who could see straight threw her lies. Like me. Jessica hated jayden for rumors... again she was over dramatic.( A/N: Jessica is based of a mean girls/ Alex from wizards of Waverly place type girl if you get what I mean)
Anyway back to the original intent of the story.
I get feelings. Ya'know where you can tell the outcome of something. Usually mine are right. I started 11th grade, it started great I had 2 close friends and then my other friends. Grades were great, soccer was great. Everything was fantastic. I was starting to get recognized on social media more. I was starting to fit in. Something that I never have really been able to do.
I went through my fair share of crap and though my brothers and sisters being way more popular than i, I always got the short stick. I didn't have many friends, didn't go out much. And I know what your thinking. "Wtf didn't she just say everything was fantastic and she had friends?" I did. My work load and free time were equally balanced, but I wanted more. I wanted to be like Adeline, and Abe, and Andrew and Alicia they were successful in college or at their new jobs. I also wanted to be like Ally, and Anthony, and aurther. Who were star athletes and the head of their classes grade wise.
I was average and my whole family was above average, over achievers, not me I was plain. In both my features as well as my studies and extra circular activities.
I was smart but not in a way I could show through school. I had the ability to manipulate people into say exactly what's on their mind. I use big words, deep sentences and personal experience to understand them and listen to them as best as I can. I understand a lot more that I need to. But only when it come to the brain. Reactions. Trauma. I'm an expert on thinking and processing thoughts. Using words to my advantage.
That's how I changed my life. That's how I used my strength to get what I wanted for once... and that was to live in harmony... or maybe a little better that Jessica. Which I could do naturally considering she was such a low life person, in my mind anyways.

I will block her out. I will stand on top. And I've already started. Because now I have Aaron.