Haylor One Shots

Someday Maybe?

2AM.

Alone with his thoughts, he had combed through his mind to when he first saw Taylor. Ed had introduced them, he remembered. He had flirtatiously kissed her on the cheek and she had done the same assuming it was just British culture. Sure it was, but, double meanings right?

A grin had slowly been spreading across his heart shaped lips and he hadn't even noticed; just the mere thought of Taylor had him beaming from ear to ear.

Sometimes when he dived into the deep end of his mind, his regrets ate him up whole, and he would spend a life time wondering what it would be like if he was still with Taylor. His thoughts would then flicker over to Calvin and he would have the picture of them, front row, BBMAs in the forefront of his mind, and the little crease in between his forehead would return and the little voice in his mind would speak up and wave his courage away saying that he never deserved Taylor in the first place.

And that was when it started. Probably two months after they had split up. Writing letters, poems, songs, anything really, when he had trouble falling sleep and when that look of hurt on Taylor's face was ingrained on the inside of his eyelids.

He felt stupid for writing them because he knew he'd never pluck up the courage to ever send any of them to her but he had defined it as a coping mechanism, and that excuse made the box of letters under his bed feel like they had lived for something.

He sat up and grabbed his typewriter, loading the paper in to the platen with the utmost care and he ran his finger along the smooth decal of his name on the top of the paper.

He blinked and let the words flow out of him. 

Everything he didn't say.

Everything he was too scared to do.

Or say.

Dearest Taylor,

It hurts I must admit. 

I'm not really the type of guy to get jealous easily but when it comes to you, I apparently am. I still remember that giddy smile on your face. The one that I cherish most. Like that time when you were tracing my tattoos under the hotel bed sheets that were hitched up like a tent because you insisted they looked pretty like that. 

It hurt. 

It hurt when I saw that same smile in those photos with you and Calvin and it looked so real I could even hear the laugh that followed soon after that giddy smile, echoing through my mind.

I was at Mum's the other day, and she had told me to send you her love. She still loves you... So does Gemma.

Mum still doesn't know we stopped talking. It's only been a month, but I feel like we haven't talked in years. Maybe I'll know that exact feeling when that does happen. If that does happen... Who knows what the future holds?

That hurt too, I guess. 

Realising that you weren't answering my texts because you started dating Calvin. I think I'm being bitter but it also hurt when those pictures came out of you and him, fingers interlocked, like how we used to,  and I remembered how you constantly swung our arms back and forth to the beat of your own drum. It hurt that I had to find out about you two from Twitter.

Everything hurt.

I'd like to believe that someday maybe, when we're old and grey, we could be in love once more. 

Maybe that's took much to ask for.

I'm still yours though, that's never changed. 

Never will.

But, I hope you remember me, singing that love song (that I didn't know the words to) at the heart of midnight, driving you around in that white convertible when we were singing at the top of our lungs, and how I always used to wake you up with those cheesy texts. 

I hope you miss them... 

I hope you miss me.

Someday, maybe.

There's not a day my thoughts aren't consumed by you, love.

All the love, Harry. X

I put away the letter to the box under my bed and fell back with a sigh, sleep flooding in like a trance.

Little did he know that she missed him too... 

More than he knew.

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HI! I missed writing and a comment saying "update" encouraged me to finally do so haha. This is inspired from 'Someday' the song (if you didn't notice that sneaky lil line I put in there), because mAAANNNN DID THAT MESS ME UP REAL GOOOD. Hope you enjoyed!