I told you so

4

          I opened the box with shaky hands, I was honestly really scared. What would happen? Would Jon and Joe walk away from me? Would Sidney run? All sorts of thoughts ran through my head. I finished taking the test. I had to wait about 5 minutes. Sitting it on the counter on the box I washed my hands. Changing into my white leggings and the hoodie that Sidney gave me. He said said that it was one of his favorites. I put my hair in a messy bun and applied my usual makeup.A little foundation eyeliner and mascara. I looked down as my timer beeped. Grabbing the test it had a smiley face on it. "Charlie God damn hurry up" I heard Jon yell. I bite my lip and grabbed the box and test. Leaving my clothes on the floor I walked into my room ignoring the weird glances Joe gave me. Dialing Sidney's number I called him. It rang and rang. Going to voicemail. He was always was up by this time. I tried calling again and this time it went straight to voicemail. I sighed and put the test in a plastic baggy. I wouldn't tell anyone right now. Hopefully Jon didn't see it. If Joe asks I'll just shrug it off and say I forgot. No one needs to know right? Just as I hid the test my phone beeped.

From My little Penguin: Hey sorry love can't talk on the phone right now coach called us in for a practice before our game today

 To My little penguin: It's alright captain, :)

     I locked my phone and pulled out my laptop. I uploaded all the pictures that I took yesterday. I took photo's of Jimmy and Jey uso, Eva, Joe, Jon, summer ray and Nattie. I emailed them to Stephanie and she emailed me back my schedule today. I would be photo shooting for Nikki and Colby and then going to the ring to take some pictures. I shut the lid of my laptop really hard and let out a sigh. "This is great just what I need" I muttered pulling my socks on. "What's wrong?" Joe asked appearing at the door. "Steph just gave me my schedule for today" I said putting my camera in my camera bag. "What's your schedule?" he asked. "Oh I am doing a couple photo shoots and going to the ring to take photos of the night" I said. "Who are you doing a photo shoot of?" he asked. "Colby and Nikki" I muttered standing up. He sighed and gave me a hug. "it's alright sis" he said. "No it's not Joe. I can't be in the same room with him without feeling my heart break" I said. "How could he just move on like that? and with her?" I said. I remember the nights we would stay up late and he would tell me about how he would through herself on him. How he wouldn't ever like Nikki that he would always love me. "You know he's two faced" Jon said walking in. I gave him a look. I didn't really want to talk with him. "Let's go" Joe said. I went to grab my bags but Jon and Joe grabbed them. Not in the mood to argue I followed them out the door. After we gave the receptionist our keys, We went to the car and I got in the back. We had a two hour drive to Dallas. I plugged in my headphones and played a demi lavato playlist. My favorite song from her began to play and I turned up my volume.

  This is a story that I have never told

I gotta get this off my chest to let it go

I need to take back the light inside you stole

You're a criminal

And you steal like you're a pro

All the pain and the truth

I wear like a battle wound

So ashamed, so confused

I was broken and bruised  

  Now I'm a warrior

Now I've got thicker skin

I'm a warrior

I'm stronger than I've ever been

And my armor, is made of steel, you can't get in

I'm a warrior

And you can never hurt me again  

I felt my phone vibrate. Glancing down I was hoping it was Sidney but it wasn't. It was Colby's number. I didn't have his number in my phone anymore but I knew it by heart. I swiped ignore and leaned my head against the window. I seen Joe moving his mouth looking back at me in the rearveiw mirror. I took out a headphone, "What?" I said. "Are you okay? you look upset" he said. "I'm fine" I said. No no i'm not fine. I miss Colby. I miss the way he always brought my mood up no matter what happened. Yeah I like Sidney I do. And now Sidney might be the father of my baby. My baby, that sounds so weird. "You sure?" he asked. I sighed and just continued to look out the window. I can't lie to Joe so I just ignored him. I closed my eyes and before I knew it we were at the arena.

Dragging my feet I went to the photo room. Getting set up I heard Nikki's laugh. "Stop Colb" she giggled. I took a drink of my water as they walked in. "Oh" Nikki gave me a dirty look "it's you doing it". "Well considering the fact that I'm the only one here that does photo shoots you would think" I said making her get quite. "So who wants to go first?" I asked looking from her to Colby. My eyes stayed on his. He nodded towards her and she stepped forward. I let my eyes move from his and Nikki walked up to me. "He's mine now so back off" she whispered probably not wanting him to hear. "If you would just stand up the and do several poses" I said. She walked over to the green screen and posed. Her hand was on her hip and the other lay at the side. "Look to the left angrily" I said. I snapped a few. "Look passed my shoulder determined" I said giving her instructions. She did so and I took more pictures. About twenty minutes later I was finished with her. "I'll see you in the locker room" she said walking over and kissing Colby on the lips. He kept his eyes open and looked at me. An uneasy feeling went through me and I turned to 'fix' my camera. "Where do you want me to stand?" Colby's soft voice was beside me. I looked up and felt my heart beat face, the blood rushed to my ears. "Just where she stood" I said. He had his shirt off and his hair lay in a gentle mess on his shoulders. His toned abs moved with every breath he took. Snapping a couple pictures of him staring straight I tried keeping my cool. I had already taken several pictures when he looked at me. It made my knees weak and I felt sick to my stomach. I needed to go to the doctors. I couldn't catch my breath and my knees got weak.  "Charlie are you okay?" Colby asked quickly at my side. 

"I feel like i'm going to be sick" I mumbled running to the trashcan. He held my hair back for me and rubbed my back. No don't please. I begged him. "Charlie that's the fourth time you have thrown up at work. You sure you don't have the stomach flu?" Paul's voice rang out from behind us. "Yeah I'm sure" I said getting water handed to me. again. "Then what's wrong?" he asked. I couldn't say anything not till I knew who the baby daddy was. "I don't know" I said looking at him. moving my hair out of my eyes I sat down.  I was tired, exhausted. "I think you should go lay down till Colby and Jon's match" Paul said. I nodded and let Colby help me up. "Do you want me to walk with you to the locker room?" Colby asked. I shook my head no, I didn't want Joe to hurt him. "I think that would be a good idea" Paul said. Great just great. I placed my camera in the bag and put it over my shoulder. Walking beside Colby because I had to I tried walking fast. "Slow down Char" Colby said trying to keep up. "No the sooner I get there the sooner I get to leave your side" I snapped. "I'm trying to be nice. I'm trying to be friends with you damn it but you keep pushing me away" he yelled.  "I keep pushing you away because you hurt me Colby. How can you not think you did anything wrong?!" I yelled back. People walking by tried ignoring the yelling we were doing but I knew they heard everything. "Fuck Charlie I love you! I love you so much I know I'm fucked up. I'm getting help. Charlie please I need you" he whispered quietly. the hurt in his eyes, I knew he meant what he said. "Colby I don't k-know" I said. "Please. I love you" he said. His soft brown eyes, looked into mine. My heart shattered. I knew what my heart wanted but this time I was telling it no. Tears brimmed my eyes. "Colby no, No I I can't" I said walking away. Far away from him. From the memories we made. I needed to leave. I needed to get out of the wwe, but how can I leave without hurting the ones I love?