Kris
I looked nervous around.
Where's Tao?
Why's he so late?
Then, after twenty minutes waiting, I saw him.
Finally.
He ran to me, hugged me tight and gave me a kiss.
Stop him.
He shouldn't do this.
Just Minseok Hyung has the right to do this.
I pushed him softly away and looked down to him.
"You know, we're just meeting because Minseok doesn't give me what I need.
There's nothing more."
He whipped his head.
"I'm sorry.
Why doesn't he sleep with you?"
"I don't know.
Let's go to our place, Minseok is waiting at home because he have something important to say,
so we don't have much time."
We went together to 'our' place, a motel where we always meet.
In our room, Tao pulled his shirt and his pants off and laid down on the bed.
As I wanted to do the same, my phone rang.
I saw on the Display.
Minseok is calling me.
I thought, that Minseok and I talk this evening and he can tell me everything then, so I ignored the call and began to kiss Tao everywhere.
The phone rang again.
And again I ignored it.
I was to busy with Tao.
He's pretty, but my little Baozi who's waiting at home is way prettier.
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After we had our fun, I pulled my clothes on and saw down in Taos eyes.
"When will we meet again?
Thursday?"
He nodded.
I wrote him a little SMS, so we both won't forget it.
Then I left the motel.
My phone rang again.
This time, it was Luhan, Minseoks best friend.
"Annyeong!
I'm sorry, I don't have much time because Minseok is waiting at home.. so, why are you calling me?"
"Minseok is death"
"W-what?! Luhan, stop joking with something like that, it's not funny!"
"Joking. Yeah, I wish it would be just a joke, but it isn't.
Minseok was calling me an hour before, he cried and wanted to see me.
He said is something about you, but he didn't say why he's crying".
Damn.
He saw me with Tao.
I had the feeling that someone followed me, but I thought it was just a feeling.
"And.. and then?"
"We wanted to meet in the park.
I was there first.
As I saw him, he crossed the street and get hit by a car.
The ambulance took him to hospital.
He was so pale and everywhere was blood.
He cried and asked where you are,
he wanted you by his side.
But you didn't answer his calls and suddenly he lost consciousness and his heartbeat stopped.
He was to weak."
I heard him cry and now I realised.
My innocent little Minseok is death.
He needed me and I ignored him.
He died while I had fun with Tao.
"But.. Yifan?
There's something other he wanted me to say you.."
"What is it?"
I asked with a weak voice.
"He was pregnant.
That's why he didn't sleep with you the last weeks."
I ended the call and trow my phone away.
Then I screamed my pain in the world.
It's all my fault.
Forgive me, Minseok.
I love you.
