pt.1/2
Kyungsoo
Last night I had to learn in a hard way,
that friends not always are what they act like.
I really trusted Baekhyun,
I told him everything about my feelings for Chanyeol.. and still, he fucked with him.
I saw them last night, as I - finally-wanted to confess to Chanyeol Hyung.
It hurts when I think that they maybe laughed all the time about me and my stupidity.
But how could I not fall in love with this giant idiot, if he's always so cute and playful.. and.. I really thought he would like me too.
x x x
Like all mornings, I was in the kitchen and prepared the breakfast for the others.
I wasn't hungry, so I took my phone and my wallet, put my shoes and my jacket on and went out, ignored how Suho called my name.
All I wanted is beeing alone.
Suddenly, my phone started ringing.
Jongin-ie was calling me.
"Yeoboseyo?"
"Hyung, is everything okay..?
Everyone here is worried about you!"
I smiled sadly.
"Nae, I'm alright, I just want to be alone for a while".
"Sure? What's with Chanyeol?
He's worried too..", Nini said.
"Just tell them that I'm alright, okay?
I need to hang up now, annyeong".
I walked and walked, but no matter how long and where I walked - I couldn't get my mind off him.
Them.
I felt betrayed.
Not just that Baek, as my best friend, slept with the boy I love, no, they also continued making me hope.
Why didn't they just tell me that they're already in a relationship?
Did they think that I couldn't handle it?
I may be not the strongest one physically, but psychically I'm not that weak.
Well, my tears told me I was wrong.
Maybe I am weak.
He made me weak.
x x x
It was already 17.30 p.m as I went back to the dorm.
The boys were im the big living room, watching an Anime together.
I sat next to Kai.
"Hyung.. come here..", he said and hugged me tight.
That was exactly what I needed and I could feel how my eyes started tearing up, but in this moment, Chanyeol came in the room.
Me and the others - Me and Kai still hugging- turned our heads to see what's going on.
Chanyeol had a shy smile on his face, his eyes were sparkling as they met mine and I could feel my heart beating faster.
For a moment he looked like he want to tell me something, but then he turned to Baekhyun and his smile became brighter.
"Do you want to be my boyfriend, Baekhyun Hyung?"
Kyungsoo heart stood still for a second, but as a good friend, he started acting like everything was okay and applauding like the other.
Even if he was heartbroken now, all he ever wanted is Chanyeol beeing happy.
He just didn't see that the sparklings in Chanyeols eyes were gone.
