Who would have thought(second book)

Family

Cole pov:

Me and my mom are like best friends.

All day today we were hanging out,laughing,yelling jokes.

It was great. I missed my mom.

"So about this wedding..." my mom could talk about wedding planning all day if she could.

"Yeah. I'm so excited mom!" I say truthfully

"What about the theme?" My mom says sipping her tea.

"A theme? We didn't plan a theme.." I say looking at the rode.

"Oh my. You guys should totally have a theme wedding. It would be so cute. Y'all two walking down the isle under a bunch of sparkling lights and a blue background... under the sea" my mom said using hand motions.

"Well I guess that wouldn't be so bad. If sound like a nice idea. But I'm home now mom. I've called a taxi for you" I say pulling up to the drive way.

"It was great spendkg the morning with you Cole. I love you" my mom says while walking to the taxi. 

"I had fun today. Bye mom I love you" I say before walking into the front door.

I turn with a big smile on my face when jay walks down the stairs.
She always looks so beautiful.

Jay pov:

The next couple days Cole had been spending a lot of time with her mom.

I'm happy for her, j truly am. But I think I might be jealous.

Her and her mom getting reunited is making me think of all the things I can't ever have with my mom.

Yeah she was rude and unexcepting, but she was my mom and I loved her.

"Bye mom I love you" I hear Cole say as the front door closes.

I walk down the steps to see my baby with a big smile of her face.

"Me and my mom was talking about the wedding. What about we have a theme?" Cole says happily.

I hadn't ever thought about having a theme wedding "um sure that would be great babe. Have anything in mind?" I ask.

"No not yet. But my mom said she'll help with the ideas."

My mom... those words keep repeating over and over in my head.

"Are you okay babe?" I beat Cole ask putting a hand on my shoulder.

"Yeah I'm fine. Just a little tired" I say lying.

"Well I have to go to work in a few... I'll be home in time for dinner. I love you." Cole says kissing my cheek and walking out the door. 

I let out a sigh of relief. I needed to be alone for a while.

To just clear my head and think.

I walk into the kitchen and grab a water. I then go upstairs and go on the laptop.

Signs of depression
I search up .

"•A sudden switch from being very sad to being very calm or appearing to be happy
•Always talking or thinking about death
•Clinical depression (deep sadness, loss of interest, trouble sleeping and eating) that gets worse
•Having a "death wish," tempting fate by taking risks that could lead to death, such as driving through red lights
•Losing interest in things one used to care about
•Making comments about being hopeless, helpless, or worthless
•Putting affairs in order, tying up loose ends, changing a will
•Saying things like "It would be better if I wasn't here" or "I want out"
•Talking about suicide (killing one's self)"

I look at what I just looked up and start sobbing.

What is wrong with me...

I miss my mother. I can't live without her. She is the one that gave birth to me. How come we had to go.

"Please come back mom" I say in between sobs.

After the sobs got quieter I started thinking to myself.

If I caused her pain which led to her death, that means I killed her.

It's MY fault she's dead.

I caused her pain... time to get even.

She gets hurt.... so do I.

I stand up and walk over to the bathroom and get out a razor.
I take it apart so only the blade is left.

I put it against my skin and drag it.

"I miss you mom" is what I whisper until I see the blood dripping down my arm.

I lay back feeling a little bit better.

There's something about the pain... that makes everything better.

I lay back on the bed and go to sleep..

Hey guys! Just wanted to know if y'all still interested in this book still. I know I haven't updated in a long time. If you lost interest that's fine.

       -kailah