My Koala

Long over Due

It has actually been a while since I last wrote in this book. Between work and the social life I pretend to have. This chapter is seriously long overdue. So much has happened and I'm ashamed for not keeping this up. I should really take the time to up date this book for her. She is everything to me and I have to at least show it.

In the time between now and the last date of the last chapter..my love for her has actually grown in major proportions. Lazy sundays, dinners, back rubs, nights out, and even dancing. There is nothing I wouldn't do for her. Some days I clean her room, or even help out with dinner or cleaning her apartment that she shares with a friend. Give her head rubs when she has a bad headache from college work. Rub her hands when they get sore from note taking, rub the knots out of her back from the stress work and school causes her.

She treats me like the little prince that I am. She understands that I have some very big issues and she tells me every time when I need to hear it. She stand high and tough in my corner cheering me on when I need it the most. She helps me adult when I really don't know how. She is very thing a man could ask for and then some. I don't know what I would do without her.

Some say that I really shouldn't get to attached to her. Considering that she has to go back to NY when she graduates college here. Or that we will never last the distance that is between us. Or she will find someone new and close to her. But I have faith in us both that we can make it. Like they say "If it's meant to be...it's meant to be".

Let's get into the fun stuff. You know the ooey gooey stuff that most people find cute in books like this. I honestly cannot sleep at night if she is not next to me. I need her in my bed to sleep. This is a major problem because I really love my sleep. I used to be able to sleep whenever I wanted too. Now I have to have an app that plays soothing music or sounds to sleep if she cannot sleep over or I cannot sleep over there. I go to campus with her on some days so I can keep her company while she walks. I love to hear her talk about a lot of different things. Work, classes, memories about her childhood, even things I don't remember anymore.

I let her do my makeup because it makes her happy. I let her take me to place to experience new things. Even though I have really bad anxiety, she helps me threw it because she knows I like to experience things with her. She got me addicted to new music. She even got me wanting to go to broadway to see Hamilton. I sing to her when she wants me too. I will lay everything down to do what she wanted me too.

Honestly I think I forget to tell her that I appreciate her. To tell her thank you for putting up with me. To tell her that I love her so deeply that I really can't find words that discribe it. To tell her that even though she is slightly taller than me, I really love her in my arms. She is a perfect fit for me and I can't really see my life without her. Yeah I know "You cannot plan your whole life around one person." I get that I really do. But have you seen what she does for me? What she does to me? Well you guys really can't see it but you can read it right? You guys can read in between the lines and words.

I have a plan. That includes her but doesn't revolve around her. I understand the hardships I might fall on me if things don't work out between her and I. I can handle that. I am a big boy. It doesn't mean that I can't hope and dream that we can be like the movies or even the books we always watch or read about. I think I found the one person I want to spend the rest of my life with. My Zing if you will (if you got the reference I like you) or even the atom I was next to before we split to create two different beings.

It's late at night when I'm writing this. This is good because it flows better and comes out more truthful. I'm also trying really hard to make this long and thoughtful because I really want to show that I care about her. That this isn't a ruse or something I'm doing to pass my time on earth. Even now I'm wearing one of her huge sweaters because it reminds me of her. She cannot be with me at the moment and that in itself kills me. We are going to have a hard time adjusting to the new schedule that is coming along with my work. But I still (like I said before) have faith and hope we can overcome it.

In case you are new here and haven't really understood what is happening in this book let me catch you up to speed. I'm very much in love with the most amazing girl in this place we call home. She is everything I can ever want or need and I can't ask for someone better for me. And this is reaching far into the future, but I can actually see myself getting married to this girl. I can see us going on walks with our huge dogs during the fall. Spending lazy sundays next to each other in our bed. Goofing off while making dinner. I can see myself drawing a bath for her because I know how exhausting work is for her. I can see myself pampering her in any way that I can.

All in all ladies and gentlemen of the jury I pled guilty to being in love. Take me to cupid's nest where I stay staring googly eyed at her. Because if that is my fate, I wouldn't have it any other way.