Damaged Beyond Repair (Student/ Teacher) ✔️

Chapter 38

Rowan

"What was the trigger?" Sofia asked me calmly.

I'd passed out last night before Sofia even had time to reach my location and luckily, she had a spare key of her car which made things a lot easier. I'd been shot with a tranquilizer and put to bed. The date, the break up, Alana screaming at me, it all seemed like it had happened years ago and not just yesterday.

I felt so ashamed of myself for how weak and vulnerable I'd been. The last thing I wanted was for Sofia to think I was unstable enough to stay in this place longer. With the way I was going, I knew she would issue me another ticket to hell hole.

"Rowan!" Sofia tapped the ballpoint pen on the table. "I want to know what happened yesterday."

I ran my hands through my hair. "I broke up with Alana."

"You what?"

"I broke up with her." I repeated.

When I glanced up, her icy blue eyes bore deep into mine. I've had people in the past, students and co-workers alike tell me that I had the ability to terrorize by a mere glance but Sofia wasn't looking away or playing with her kerchief which reminded me who was the boss here. Clearly, I wasn't. I looked away when she'd possibly bored smoke holes into me.

"In my career of twenty-two years, I've never seen a case like yours. I fail to understand you, Masters. The more I try to figure out what is going on in your mind, the more I'm baffled." She narrowed her eyes at me. "I thought you said you loved her."

"I do. More than I've ever loved someone and I want what's best for Alana."

"And you think you aren't the best?" she asked, scribbling something furiously on her notepad.

"I'm far from it." I admitted.

"Why did you break up? From what I've heard from you, Alana seems like a responsible girl. I'm sure she would have waited for you if you had told her that you needed some time to figure things out. Breaking up is not a solution."

"So what do you suggest?" I glared at her. "That a few years later, I marry her and then wouldn't it be history repeating itself?"

I was sick of people telling me what to do. This was my life. I had a right to decide what I wanted to do.

"Alana is a student, and if I keep leading her on the way I've been doing then it's not going to end well. She doesn't need to complicate her life because of me."

"You gotta stop doing this. Always making decisions for Alana, that's not right. You need to tone down the domineering streak that's gonna get you in some serious trouble someday. I don't usually use this word, but let's admit it this once. You fucked up big time. That girl was the only one who would have kept you tamed, under control and you just let her go."

"Tamed? What am I? An aggressive Rottweiler?" to that, Sofia chuckled and that made me angrier. She was doing it on purpose. "What do you want me to do?"

"There's only one way to make it right. Call Alana and tell her you didn't mean what you said."

I shook my head. "I can't do that."

"Suit yourself. Remember this, you aren't going to be in this place forever, the time you will walk out of here, Alana would probably be with someone else. Are you going to be okay with that?"

"If that guy would be nothing like me, and if he would make her happy. I'd be glad for her."

Sofia scribbled something in her notepad again. "You're going to regret it, Rowan. Mark my words."