He Loves Me

☆08.Reminiscence

(Adrian's POV )

I feel like a complete jerk. I'm so pissed at myself. I step on my accelerator harder and drive fast. I don't know where I'm going but I drive fast.

Danis and Ryan tried to come with me but I made them stay... when I'm mad it's best if nobody else is around me.

I'm driving but my mind is totally out of focus. There's so many things running in my head right now.

What happened with my mother and sister,...... how I punched my bestest friend who has always supported me in everything .....and how I embarassed and hurt that innocent girl Rosie infront of everyone......she didn't even speak a word against me though I was a complete dushbag.

I tighten the break pad and bring the car to a stop in an abandon street, lacking energy to drive anymore. I check the time it's 7 now. I've been driving for so long but still I'm not ok.

I get off the car my dad's Mercedes. I feel sick. What kind of a person am I. All I do is kill people in and out and chase people away from my life.

"God please let me die....let me die"I screem as a tear drops down my cheek. I don't always cry but today there's too much pressure within me.

I fall on to the ground loosing my balance next to my car and let all the tears I've been hiding in all this time, freely fall.

"Lucy happy birthday my angel. Sorry your brother did a lot of bad deeds today." I say and start crying remembering Lucy's face and how different things would have been if she was still alive.

I went to Lucy's grave today and remembered that day again. I should have stayed at home today. I made things worse by going to school.

"I'm sorry Lucy.. I'm sorry Noel..I'm sorry Rosie.. I don't deserve to be around people". I can't do this anymore.

I get back into the car and drive fast I'm gonna hit my car somewhere hard and kill myself.

" Your a blady selfish assho** Adrian Sawyer! Urghhhh" I cry and screem at the same time. And tighten the accelerator.