LOVE ME BLIND

Carter Jones

It's amazing how just one moment, one mistake could have an effect on a persons entire life.
One month and I still check the news  everyday for the announcement of a dead person from a hit and run but nope none.
Maybe the impact of the hit was so hard that the human was thrown somewhere no one could find the body or maybe, just maybe the person was alive which I strongly doubted.
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My mind kept going back to the night of the accident.
Me sitting in shot gun, Max driving with Elliot and Jake at the back.
We were coming back from a Saturday night out party, all of us with alcohol present in our systems.
I blared out the radio with us singing along to highway to heaven.
I remember laughing at Max who was slamming his hands against the steering wheel so hard and shaking his head up and down.
I could see Elliot at the back from the reversing mirror, he was sitting on the left side opposite me, mimicking a guitarist with his hand flowing up in the air like a maniac trying to make guitar noises.
Jake sat in the middle beside Elliot and I had to turn back before I could see him, he was mimicking a drummer, as he banged his feet hard on the car floor.
He was also bobbing his head up and down like Max whilst he pretended to flip an imaginary drum stick.

I was observing everyone and laughing at the scene we had created in the car, I sang from time to time thumping my hand up and down.

We all felt so happy and it was a great moment to be in at that time.

It was great until I saw what was about to unfold in that moment.
Crossing the road in front of the car was a tiny image of a girl , the person was not looking at the side we were coming from and Max was too busy looking in through the mirror to laugh at Elliot and Jakes stupid random acts.

I panicked, and shouted at Max as he drove towards the girl with full speed, Max brought his attention back to the road but he was too late.
He pulled the brakes of  the car with a screech as he swore "sh*t", we all heard the huge bang the car made when it hit the person.
We knew it was serious, I was ready to get out of the car to rush the girl to the hospital but no that didn't happen instead Max drove on.
"What the "fu*k?", were my exact words.

"Someone will see her", was Max's reply.
"Max we did this we have to fix it, you can't just leave her like that", I remember shouting.
Jake and Elliot made no sound probably just in shock.
"We can't go back or we will be jailed, I can't get into anymore trouble God dammit!"
"But Max she could die", I screamed back trying to get him to turn his steering wheel but that didn't work , he stopped his car and ordered me to get out.

So around 12pm in the night I was left out to find a way home with drink in my system.
I was so tempted to walk back to the injured victim but I couldn't, I didn't want to find out that she was dead.

With trembling  hands I turned on my phone and rang 999, the emergency line, whilst I did this I tried to walk back to where the accident was but not too close that I could see it.
I wanted the emergency line to trace the route of the call.
"Hello?, Hello? are you there?", I was stuck for words I didn't know exactly what to say.
"Errrr......acc--ident", was what I said then I hung up .
I remember running all the way to my house.
It wasn't easy , we were just 15 mins away from my house when Max ordered me out of his car, so it took me 30 mins to get there.
My sister was the only one at home so I didn't have to explain anything to her about why I was late or why I was sweating, we didn't really care about each other.
I remember trying to get some sleep but all I could do was think about what had happened.
What was she doing out at that time? walking all on her own.
I wondered if the emergency line followed the route, I wondered if she was going to survive, and till this day I wonder the same thoughts.
I might have killed someone and the worse thing is I could have helped to prevent that from happening.
if I just ran back to the scene and made sure that the person was fine......
I was a coward that's what I was.