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Phonecall (May)

I don't know how I get home but I'm glad I did. I go straight to my room, ignoring my family's yells, and lie down on my bed. I sleep for a half hour and after that I take a bath. I dress up and go down to prepare dinner. I still ignore the yells and I think about what happened with James. I regret crying, I regret running. Was that all he was supposed to say? Or was he going to say something else? Does he like me back? Or does he even want to be friends with me? Should I go to school tomorrow? Should I talk to him? The questions stop when I cut myself. My mother sees it. "THAT'S WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU'RE TOO IGNORANT! YOU NEED TO PAY ATTENTION MORE TO WHAT YOU'RE DOING! FIND A WAY TO HEAL THAT! I WON'T BE HELPING YOU! YOU STILL NEED TO FINISH COOKING!" my mother yells at me. I ignore it and go upstairs. I take out my first aid kit and try what I can with my cut. I go back down and continue cooking. I serve chicken and grilled vegetables. For the first time, we eat in silence. Nobody looks at me and nobody yells at me. We just eat. After that, I wash the dishes and go up to my room. I brush my teeth and go to bed. "RIIING! RIIING!" my phone rings and I check the name. I don't recognize it so I ignore it. The telephone rings beside me and I answer it. "Hello? Is this May Julie Capita? This is James speaking." My heart stops. It's him! It's him! I can't believe it! He called me! "Yes this is May." "Hi! I wanted to say that I made you cry and I made you run away. I hope you forgive me for wha..." I cut him off. "I'm sorry. I overreacted. I panicked. I didn't know how to reply. I love you!" I say. Wait! I said I love him?! Oh no! "You love me?" he asks. I feel a chill run down my spine. I'm so nervous! "Uhmm. I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I didn't mean to say that! I just meant that..." he cuts me off. "It's alright! I like you ok? Calm down!" I hear him laugh. I feel so weird. I don't know how to reply. "Well, that's all I wanted to say. Goodnight May!" he breaks the silence. "Uhh, Goodnight James." I whisper. I put down the phone. I can't believe that just happened! Why did I say I love you? We will be awkward tomorrow! Oh no! I want to cry again but I can't. I remember him saying he likes me too. I lay my head on the pillow and sleep.