Lost

i think i love you

Turns out the girl he was with was a long time friend that always had a crush on him but he didn't feel the same,  the other night I'm assuming was an opportunity to get a chance to confess her love to him by kissing him and that he froze and didn't mean anything. I read his explanation in the text, he signed it off with a simple sorry  

even though it didn't mean anything to him it meant everything to me. 

I delete the messages and move on to my homework.

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It's now 3:00 the bell just dismissed us to go home I exited out my English class which is near by his locker, I was the last to exit the class to catch up on any missing assignment that i miss when i was going through a mental breakdown and ditched school,  and there he was near his locker putting his book Into his locker and placing the necessary items he need in his bag to take home with him. I would've went another way but that was the only way to exit the building in this hallway is to pass by and I wasn't trying to make him notice me

So I picked up my pace hoping he doesn't notice me

But you know the world hates me and my shoes squeaked I almost tripped in mid air causing him to turn to the sound of the noise I stayed frozen in spot like a deer caught in headlights and then I did what i knew best, I ran. I was out of breath by time I was out the building, that's what i get for not staying in shape and eating 24/7. I stood there for what seem like two minutes catching my breath, I stayed a little too long I should've catch my breath somewhere else because I felt him grab my wrist and placed both his hand on my shoulders . I stare into his chocolate eyes- the Chocolate eyes i love to see everydaymy mouth departs slightly still catching my breath.

"I know you must hate me right now, but us not talking is really ruining me, we went from hanging out everyday to not all." I was going to say it was his fault but he beat me to it. "I know it is my fault but im going to fix this , you can ignore me all you want but i won't stop talking to you I'll do anything i can to win you back." and with that he walked away. A part of me wanted to run after him. And take him back but i stayed glued to the spot as he left.

I felt torn apart chewed up and spitted out

I felt like shit

I walked my way home

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I went straight to my bedroom played music as long as I can and I danced crazily until i couldn't danced anymore and I dropped on my bed lazily and out of breath. I'm losing so much calories today

I heard a rock hit my window i crawled across my bed and to see what's hitting my window and it was nothing,no one was there

Then i heard the door bell rang

"What the hell?" I say to myself

The door bell ring

"I'm coming." I shouted I opened the door to come across him with an impatient look on his face and he had a bag of food with Wendy's face on it. I looked at him and close the door on his face, well tried, he placed his foot on the door step prohibiting me to close the door properly in his face

"Nice try," he stuck his tongue out childishly causing a grin to appear on my face

"Sorry my house is a bit of a mess." I say not facing him and making my way to the living room turning on the tv, the addams family value was playing. "I brought you some food." he placed the bag in front of me. "Thanks, what about you?"

" I already ate earlier." I lost so many calories today and now I'm going to gain it back, I munched on this delicious burger. While his vision is faced on a new movie that was playing, that he changed, I think it's called nerve.

I finish eating "I forgive you but you still hurt me and i still hate you."

" What? he laughed you can't just forgive me and still hate me, you're crazy."

"Aren't we all crazy, I'm just the good kind." He stare at me with seriousness

"You know what i noticed" he says

"What?" I asked

"You grinned, a full on grin and when that happened your eyes light up and you look beautiful that way, I rather you like that than when you're sad. your sadness is a bit contagious and it makes me feel sad too." my stomach just churned, i think it's the burger did he just call me beautiful?

"Really? I never noticed"

"Of course you wouldn't, cause you rarely smile."

" That's not true, I laugh when I watch my favorite shows." I argued

" That doesn't count." he shakes his head, I cross my arm "Fine." He pulls me closer to him and gave a kiss a small kiss on my forehead the movie finished and, I take peak at him and saw that he is sleeping, I removed his arm from around and me and went to my room to grab a blanket,

I think I love you I whisper

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