Love knot

Starting To Miss Her

*Jess POV*

Lily and I haven't talked for a few months now...actually she hasn't been talking to anyone for a few months. Whenever I see her in school she's always sad or emotionless and she hangs her head. Luke, Mason, and Brandon have all tried to talk to her, but she walks by them as if they didn't even exist anymore. People still talk about her after everything and all the popular girls hate her for getting the guys attention. I've never seen her like this before, she's usually all happy and bubbly. I can tell that her absence is starting to effect my brother, he doesn't talk as much during lunch and right after football practice he goes straight to his room for the rest of the day except for dinner time. I may act happy being part of the "popular" group but honestly I miss how things used to be. All these girls do is start and talk about drama...I can't see why anyone would want to be like them. I miss Lily a lot, but I'm still so angry at her. Sometimes I get so angry that I don't even remember the reason why, yeah she was with Brandon but she then went for Mason...I guess I just didn't want him getting hurt even though he's even more hurt right now without Lily. Not just that but I was scared to lose my best friend and my brother to each other, if they started dating they would spend every second together and I'd be forgotten about. Anyways besides my brother I feel for Brandon, he didn't exactly get a chance to explain everything before Lily flipped the script. My feelings are all over the place about this whole situation. If I'm going to be honest with myself I will say that I was also angry because Lily gets so much attention now, I feel like I'm just there and no one cares. I may have freaked hard on her but I think I had the right. Mason and I headed to school, I saw Lily's car right in front of us, mason noticed too. We sat there for a minute and watched her get out...I just had the urge to run out and give her a big hug and greeting, but I didn't have the courage to do so. She looked so hurt and all I can do is blame it on myself for saying those cruel things to her. The day went on as usual, the girls wanted to go shopping but I decided to just go home. Normally the girls gave me a ride home because Mason has football practice, but instead I walked today. I just wasn't feeling it. As I was walking home I walked by our neighborhood park and noticed that Lily was just sitting on the bench alone. My head was telling me to just keep walking, but my heart missed my bestfriend and wanted to make things right. I decided to go talk to her....I sat down and It was awkward, she didn't look at me or anything just sat there and stared into the lake. I broke the silence and said hi.

"Hey Lily" I said with a smile on my face.

"Uh...hi j..jess" I could tell she was nervous.

"Listen I wanted to" Before I could even finish she broke down into tears and started sobbing. I just wanted to hug her and say it was okay, and so I did.

" I'm so sorry Jess. I didn't think it would hurt you that much, and if I knew it'd ruin our friendship I wouldn't have ever done it. I don't know what came over me...I truly am sorry for everything I've done and said to you" in that moment I decided that it was going to be okay.

"Lily look, it hurt me a lot I felt like I was becoming less important to you, and I was scared that if you and Mason started dating that you guys wouldn't forget about me. But seeing you now...I know that would never happen. If you truly like my brother I give you permission to date him but please don't lead him on and then end up choosing Brandon. And I'm also sorry for the things I said, they weren't true."

"Are you sure Jess? Because like I said, I wouldn't ruin our friendship again for anything..."

"Yes I'm sure Lily, you're my best friend and I want you to be happy." I wasn't sure how she was going to go about this with Mason because clearly he's hurting right now....I'm not sure if  he'll even care anymore at this point. After the talk we hugged each other and said our goodbyes. It felt nice to have my best friend back. I went home contempt with how things went and I went on about my day. Mason finally came home from football practice and it was later than usual, he surprisingly looked happy. I thought maybe Lily had talked to him already but that wasn't the case....
"Hey bro, why you so happy right now?"
"Jess, during football practice a bunch of exchange students came to visit our school, they're going to be going to Lanchester High starting Monday" He has this huge grin on his face and I couldn't understand why
"So why does that make you so happy?" I asked quite confused.
"I met this girl, her names Elena. I bumped into her when I was going to get something from my car"
"Okay, so what?" After he said that, I started to get nervous.
"Well she was insanely gorgeous and we just started talking...we decided to hangout after my football practice, that's why I'm home later than usual....Jess I think I'm finally getting over Lily, Elena is amazing." I was dumbfounded, what's going to happen with Lily? She'll think that I set her up or something and there goes the friendship ruined once again. Such bad timing, I couldn't believe this was happening. I didn't know if I should tell mason about what happened with Lily today, he seemed so happy and I didn't wanna ruin that for him. He hasn't been happy in months. I decided to just keep my mouth shut and told him that I was happy for him. Hopefully I'll figure things out by tomorrow. Let's just hope that this doesn't start a war.

A/N  Hey guys I finally finished another chapter, this was surprisingly a lot harder than I expected it to be. I didn't want to make it so that Mason and Lily were happy together already, so I had to add a twist. You'll find out more in the next chapter...and I'm sorry for such a late update!! Hope you enjoyed, see you in the next chapter! Xoxo