20.12, 7:59pm
Hello.
Still tired and feeling kind of numb..
I didn't eat breakfast...I wasn't hungry..
at school I saw him..at school's library..
he was reading fight club..
and looking so cute with so intense look on his face..
I sat next to him saying hi..
while still reading he mumbled something that I excepted was hello..
unexpectedly he turned and said "DO YOU WANNA JOIN OUR BAND?!"
and I was trembling and blushing and finally I get words out of my mouth "ummm...okay?"
and he was like "YEAAAH" while everyone else was shhhhhhhhhhh silence.
he gave me notes saying "practice these, you're gonna sing them tomorrow"
......im so nervous..
...what can I do?
wish me luck!!!!!
xoxo
21.12, 9:06
hello.
Last day at school.
I was singing in front of everyone...
Dave the badass in the drums, Michael the prince in the bass and Lucifer in the guitar.
Nomy "Freakshow"
Would you hold me if I'm empty
Would you care if I was lost
Would you love me if I'm guilty
No matter what it cost
Would you use your knife against me
Would you cut me just to see
If I would go to heaven
But that remains to see
So welcome to my freakshow
This is who I am
A part of me is empty
But I am still a man
So use your imagination
And take a look around
This is my creation
This is what you found
Welcome to my freakshow
You may never leave
This is everything I know
For your's is hard to believe
Would you kiss me when I bleed
Would you see or close my eyes
Cuz' I won't live forever
Creatures made by lies
So welcome to my freakshow
You are in my head
It's empty when I sleep
And i'm dying in my bed
Welcome to my freakshow
This is who I am
A part of me is empty
But I am still a man
So use your imagination
And take a look around
You are in my dream now
This is what you found
Every situation
It isn't real, it is a game
It's my disposition
I can't feel no shame
I try to understand them
I try to ask them why
Why they are inside me
No matter what I try
I can't sleep
Everything makes me fall
I can't think
Cuz' of you, dreams come true
Welcome to my freakshow
This is who I am
A part of me is empty
But I am still a man
So use your imagination
And take a look around
You are in my dream now
This is what you found
Is it you or is it me
Am I blind or can I see
Do you know what I can dream
Can you break my self esteem
Can you pull me through the sky
Would it end if I would die
Can you carry me along
In peace where I belong
Welcome to my freakshow
This is who I am
A part of me is empty
But I am still a man
So use your imagination
And take a look around
You are in my dream now
This is what you found
Ooh
Welcome to my freakshow
This is who I am
A part of me is empty
But I am still a man
Welcome to my freakshow
This is who I am
A part of me is empty
But I am still a man
Feeling nervous..and being afraid of everyone making names...
I heard..them clapping and cheering..?
Lucifer came to me and said that he knew it...that I'm great?
and then Dave and Michael came and hugged me...thanked and said "welcome to our band"...
I felt happiness? I felt that I belong there?
this was maybe the best day of my week, month, year...
wish me luck for tomorrow
xoxo
