magoa.

scintilla

scintilla ---> a tiny, brilliant flash or spark.

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the butterflies were fluttering.

such feeling usually started every time i would see him. it was a very sickening feeling to be honest, since it feels like your stomach's been squeezed together with your heart racing. i can't really tell how it began--it just did. and seeing him standing across from me, really triggered the butterflies.

he was there, a few feet from where i was standing. he was holding a book in one hand, and was reading it as he walked. it was pretty obvious that we'd be crossing paths. and i can already feel the heat and panic visible on my face.

i tried to stay calm, telling all the cells of my body to stop fidgeting. i roamed my eyes everywhere just to not look at him or see him. but stupid eyes they were and yet they always find a way to meet his gaze.

we stared at each other's eyes as we crossed, and i was kind of hoping that he would smile at me, just like what he usually do. but all i got was an empty look. nothing else. i felt my heart sank. my feet involuntarily stopped, and i was only standing there at the sidewalk, my mind trying to pick up what just happened. he didn't smile.

i looked back at him, and he continued walking as if he didn't see me. i guess he doesn't even have one single idea about my feelings. i mean, how would he even know? and why would he?

i closed my eyes for a moment, trying to catch my breath, as i can feel my heart sinking. it was funny to think that i was getting my hopes up for a boy i barely knew. i don't even have any idea who he was.

he just barged into my life one day, caused by a ludicrous accident on a monday afternoon. it started when my friend--who was a very jolly person and wanted me to date someone--began promoting something very stupid. the next thing i knew, a bunch of people were already looking at me with their judgmental stares and my friend pointing his fore finger at me.

i was blushing at that time and i can feel the tension building up inside me. i caught my friend's eyes, and threw him a you'll-be-so-dead look. and that's when i saw him. he was looking at me with a small smile, obviously feeling embarrassed as well--i noticed that he was the one my friend asked to date me. i tried to look away, but his smile was so pretty, i can't help but to smile at him too.

a few days passed, and we never really talked, just smiles. he was a year higher than me, so i barely got the chance to see him often. but every time i would he would be smiling at me. it sort of became a normal thing for me, after a few weeks--the smiles-- so i actually didn't paid any attention to it. well, at first i did since i found it really strange and ridiculous. but as time goes by, there was something in me, that wants to see him everyday, to talk to him, to hear him laugh, to see him smile, and be friends with him.

but i was too shy. weird thing is every time my eyes would lay upon him, my heart would start beating abnormally, plus the strange churning of my stomach. but to be honest, i was happy.

i slowly opened my eyes, the soft breeze brushing my coat as i tried to stop the memories from coming back. there was nothing really special about those memories. it was only him smiling at me and i thinking about him constantly. but it feels like those memories became a part of my life already. and even in a small flicker of time, i was glad that i met him. even if it's not that hi-nice-to-meet-you meet.

but i suppose there's nothing permanent in this world. and i don't have any choice. all i can do is accept. even if it's sad and terrible and horrid and forlorn and depressing and even if it hurts i just have to accept that maybe he actually doesn't have any idea or maybe he was plainly numb to care for my feelings.

and i guess, i may like him more than i think i do.

a/n.

eeyyyyy! thanks for reading this one-shot and this was the first time i actually made one lol. so sorry if it was a bit crappy. anyway this was based on a true story but i did added some extras, so it's kind of OA from the actual story ehehe xD. but the whole story plot was purely true. so basically it's like 75 % true. and lmao i was also the witness of the story. yep, this isn't my story-- this is the story of my friend and she asked me to write it down so i gave it a shot cuz why not? ;) well, hope you enjoyed reading it and please do comment your thoughts/reactions! votes and comments are highly appreciated!

xoxo owen <3