Being told that I need to lose weight every single day of my life for the past 12 years or so has been oh so blissful! Note sarcasm!
Every party or event that we went to, just made things worse, I remember a day when my mom, who loves me more than one can imagine can to my room late at night and sobbed, asking me why I am unable to lose weight and be like all the other girls my age! What could I say, I was just as heart broken as my mother when all the snobby ladies, who thought they looked decent enough decided to throw shade on my mom for how I looked! That day I realised that these 'women', who claim to be elite in society are indeed the worst people on the planet, and I honestly no longer cared for their words, but my mom did and so did the people around me, especially those that loved me!
Being a 24 year old with a size 40 waist and a nice belly and amazing back fat and massive thighs is every girls dream and I was living the dream! Again, note sarcasm!!
I have everything anyone can ever ask for, except for self confidence which society including me relatives have shattered so wonderfully.
Now, let me tell you about my fiancé, he's 27, works as a manager in some corporate company and is by far from my definition of a perfect man in my eyes, but I still love him! You would think that the one person, who I've been saving myself for would love me for me and not for how I look, well you're wrong, and so was I!
Everytime I send him a cute picture or think look good, I always have to deal with a 'you'll be beautiful if you lose some weight' or 'our wedding is in a year, I need a bride that people would be jealous of', so in a nutshell, the one person who according to all the novels I have ever read is supposed to love me unconditionally has suddenly put me in such a position where I hate looking at myself in the mirror! And in order to deal with my insecurities, I have become this sarcastic bad ass, but really I'm just a girl who is tired of being harshly judges deep down!
And this is my story of how I try to deal with this major issue in life!
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Is this a SIN
Non-FictionMaria, is your average 24 year old medical student! However how she sees herself through this worlds eyes is not the average thinking at all! Her main issue, her body, and that changes how she perceives the world! This is a book about body shamming...
