5sos Imagines

You Are My Sunshine|Calum

(Vanessa's P.O.V)

"Vanessa! Get down here please!" I hear Mom say. I quickly put the pills back in the cabinet and stare at them...not yet. "Coming!" I head downstairs to help Mom with dinner for us, Dad, and the babies. Mom's pregnant with twins, and it's kind of hard to actually be paid attention to when there's others to be taken care of, but I tried to make it work. I hear the door open and close "Honey, I'm home!" I roll my eyes, Dad has always been cheesy. "Hi (Y/N)" he says to Mom. "Hello Cal" she says while Dad gives her a kiss on her temple. "Hi Vanessa" Dad says to me. "Hi Daddy." I say as I give him a kiss on the cheek. The last hi. Mom quickly finishes dinner and we all sit down to eat. It's 7:14...it'll probably take them hours to find me, that's good. We all sit and eat in silence, not an uncomfortable one, but a nice one. One where you're so comfortable that anything doesn't have to be said. We all finish eating and its 8:03, I quickly sit at my desk and write a note.

Dear Mommy and Daddy,

I never thought I would write this note, but here I am. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being such a burden. I'm sorry for being a disappointment. I'm sorry for not being the perfect child. I'm sorry for being me. It is exactly 8:04 pm, July 17, 2021. I've been alive for 15 years, but that's 15 years and 9 months too long for the people at school apparently. And I agree. I don't know if you meant to have me, probably not, but all I know is that I don't have a purpose anymore. Mommy, Daddy, I want everything I have to go to the babies, I don't know what use it can give them, just do it. I'm running out of space to write, so here it is. I never felt like I was enough to for you guys, the kids in my school, for everyone. I don't know what to do anymore and I'm tired of it. It is currently 8:16 now. I'll see you all in a while, hopefully a long while. I'm sorry. I love you Mommy and Daddy.

Love your disappointment,
Vanessa

I put down the pencil and look around. For the last time. I run to the bathroom and open the cabinet again. I find the antidepressant pills. Funny. I grasp two and swallow them. Then two turns to three. Three goes to six. And next thing you know, I down a total of 27. I feel a little woozy and sit down. I feel scared and want to see Mom and Dad for the last time. I started to cry. "MOMMY! DADDY! HELP ME PLEASE! I'M SORRY! I'M SCARED. I'M SCARED." I scream while I sob. Hard enough for them to hear me. I hear footsteps and hear them bang on the door repeatedly. " V, WHAT'S WRONG?!?" I hear Dad scream. I feel extra woozy now, but I'm still sobbing. I quickly unlock the door and they run in and see me. "WHAT'S WRONG?" I hear Mom say. I was holding the note and put it and the bottle in Mommy's hand. I check my watch. Time of death: 9:37 pm. I pass out.

(Y/N P.O.V)

"NESSA!" I scream. MY BABY. I quickly call 911 and wait for the dispatcher. "911, what's your emergency?" "MY DAUGHTER MIGHT BE DEAD!" I sob into the phone. "What happened?" " SHE CALLED ME AND MY HUSBAND UPSTAIRS AND GAVE ME A NOTE AND AN EMPTY PILL BOTLE! HELP ME PLEASE! I THINK SHE'S DEAD!" I stare at Calum who is now sobbing and holding her in his arms. "Princess, please wake up. Your king and queen need you. Please wake up, Baby!" Calum says with panic. "Help is on the way ma'am." I hang up the phone and sit next to Calum. He holds her closer and tighter and just sings. "You are my sunshine. My only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are gray." We hear the ambulance pull up, but we just stay still. "You never know dear, how much we love you." The paramedics burst in and take her from us. "Please don't take my sunshine away."

13 years later

"Mom! He asked me out!" I hear Abby say. We had the twins and here they are at 13 years old. Brian is older than his sister, Abby. "See, I told you he liked you back." I say, as Calum walked in. He was holding a box. I didn't know what it was until I saw the writing on the side...oh. "Now?" I asked, my eyes still in the box. Calum nods and calls the twins down. "Abby! Brian! We want to talk to you two!" We hear them come downstairs to us. "What's up?" Brian asks. "And what's in the box?" Abby adds in. "That's what I wanted to show you guys." He puts the box on the table and opens it...the memories...that night. "Who's Vanessa?" The twins asked at the same time. "And why does she have my middle name?" Abby asks, confused. "Actually, you have her name." I say sadly. "She's...well she's your older sister." Calum says. "But we don't have an older sister." Brian states. "I know. That's why we want to talk to you two. She committed suicide. She was bullied and couldn't handle it. She was 15. You two would've loved her, in fact, she loved you guys. Your mom was pregnant with you two when she died, and she wanted us to give you her stuff. And that's what's in this box." Calum explained carefully. They stare at it sadly. "She sounds nice." Brian says. "She was." I added in carefully. We went through the old stuff and found a pretty interesting item. "Who's ' 5 Seconds of Summer'? That's a pretty shitty name." Abby says with her face scrunched up. " Hey! Don't make fun of my band!" Calum exclaims, offended. "YOU WERE IN A BAND?!?" "Yep. With your uncles Luke, Michael, and Ashton." Cal states proudly. " I thought you guys were pretty lame." I joined in. "Shut up, you were obsessed!" Calum says. "Yep, especially for the bassist." I said.  We continue going through the stuff and found one more thing. A bracelet. The one we gave her as a baby. Tears rolled down my face as I stare at the engraving. The marks will never be forgotten. The simple quote: YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE.