All Over Again

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Alyssa's POV
I feel like me and Nathan's relationship is going downhill. It's like the spark is gone. All I can focus on is Weston and how I still like him. Should I break up with Nathan or.... wait for him to do it.

Well he was picking me up for school today so I could tell him that I feel like we need to do something that's makes a spark again. I changed into (pic in media) then ate some breakfast

I got into the car and we drove off while he was driving I decided it was the time to tell him.

Me: hey Nathan?
Nathan: yeah

He said while his eyes were glued to the road

Me: I feel like this re....
Nathan: relationship is going down and that there's not a spark anymore?
Me: Um yeah
Nathan: I know I feel it too but I don't know how to get the spark back.

He said as he looked at me. I looked at him then back at the road with a car coming straight at us last seeing my head hitting the airbag.

When I woke up I was in the ambulance on a stretcher.

Me: what?.. where's nat--
Paramedic: don't try to talk it will only hurt more

I just fell back asleep. When I woke up the second time I was actually in the hospital. I looked down at my leg which was wrapped in a cast. My mom came over to me and smiled sympathetically

Me: where's Nathan?

Her smile quickly faded

Mom: honey Nathan...

She hesitated

Mom: he died instantly when the car hit you guys
Me: wha-- what?
Mom: honey I'm so so sorry

I sobbed into her shoulder

Me: why him why not me.
Mom: don't think like that

I heard Nathan's voice and perked my head up but didn't see anyone

Nathan: I'm okay Ally I feel so much better... yes I'm dead but I'll always be here with you in your heart. I love you
Me: I love you too Nathan

I whispered very quietly so that my mom couldn't hear me. After a few minutes Hunter, Brandon, and Ashton came in. Ashton hugged me really tight, Brandon cried and hugged me saying he thought that he lost me, and hunter did the same and whispered to me that he was sorry for Nathan's death

-Next Day-

I got out of the hospital yesterday and I decided to go to stay home instead of go to school. I need to ask my mom something.

Me: hey mom?
Mom: yes?
Me: who was driving the other car? Did they die too?
Mom: no honey they didn't die... but they were drunk and they are spending the rest of their life in jail.
Me: they were drunk?!
Mom: yes honey don't freak out about it
Me: how can I not freak out about it when my boyfriend was killed by some stupid freakin drunk driver!!!
Mom: honey take a deep breath
Me: I just can't I'm gonna go to my room.

I grabbed my crutches and went up the stairs into my room. It's really stinks I can't storm out of the room by running. It's like my specialty.

When I got to my room I lay in my bed and stared at the ceiling and cried into my pillow. Why?! Why him?!

--4 Months Later--

At school everything's been going great! I got my cast off! I never forget about Nathan though. I'm still in touch with Loren but I've almost completely forgotten about everyone else.

I made lots of new friends. A lot of them guys because me and guys just I don't know have more things in common, but don't worry I've got some girl friends.