get me outta my mind (rant III)

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for the past little while i've been a pretty happy person, like for the past two weeks, i've been doing so well and i've put all the negativity behind me. i think thursday (three days ago) was the biggest slip up, i really was on the verge of tears the whole day, and friday that guy from fifth hour kept trying to get my attention so he could tell me how ugly i am but i ignored it.
those have been the only two slip ups where i'm really sad.

but my god, today it's all back, it's so overwhelming. i forgot how bad it hurt.
i can't even explain it, i don't really know all of it, but my goodness it's terrible.
i'm so done.