A little something.

Well.

This is something I wrote for my ex when we were together.

There's so many things to say, but not enough time to say it. The thing is that, I love you so very much. I think you're the most beautiful girl ever, really, no shit. You're so beautiful on the outside, and your inner beauty just ads more beauty to the outside... It's fucking insane. I don't have one bad thing to say about you, it's not bad that I think you're kind of annoying sometimes... Is it? No, it's not :)

When I sit in a bus by myself, I can't help but thinking about you. There's so many things we have to do together, things we have to see. I want to be by your side when you experience new things, I wanna be there with you.

I don't know what this really is... Teen love, or whatever... I just know that I love you, and that I want to spent as many waking hours as possible with you. I wanna be happy with you as long as I can, and I wanna be sleeping in OUR bed in OUR house one day..... I truly believe that it would be fantastic...

I don't know why I'm so afraid, but showing my feelings to you is just so damn hard. I wanna give you everything I have, and I wanna show you how much I love you... I'm just afraid that you don't want me anymore someday, and I can't take it...

There's something about you that just makes me so nervous all the time, sometimes I'm nervous when I kiss you. I'm nervous for your reaction when I hug you, or smile at you... I don't know why, but I'm afraid of pushing you away. I'm afraid that someday I will have a feeling that you don't love me anymore, and then I just quit... I just lose all will to do anything, I lose every single drop of confidence and, I just lose you... Just like that, you're gone...
I love you so freaking much it's scaring me... I love you so much, that if you ever left me I would go insane. I swear, I would burn down a house or some crazy shit....

All my life I've been so lonely, I felt like I had to pretend that I was in love with people, just to feel a bit good about myself... But with you there's no pretending, no hiding the true me... You have all of me, you have AnnBeth... I've always identified myself as Beth, but when I got real it was AnnBeth... When Im confident I'm AnnBeth, when I feel like I can do shit I'm AnnBeth. I'm always AnnBeth when things go right... And when we kissed the 28th of August 2015 it wasn't Beth, it was AnnBeth making everything seem right. Everything with you is so true, beautiful, right and so dumb... I love it, fuck me I love it. It's one of the greatest things that has ever happened to me, right after being born of course :) I feel so good when you're holding me, even if it hurts sometimes XD Sometimes the part where it hurts makes me smile, cuz that small pain, with that great hug... That is the definition of our wonderful relationship, filled with stupid ups and downs... I know I just called out relationship stupid and dumb, but it truly is... And I love it so damn much...

Snow reminds me of you, it's so pure and white and beautiful... But sometimes snow is just annoying, but I like being out when it snows, because the snow makes me feel good.