I have been pretending to be okay for so long that i dont know how to make people understand that I'm not when i cant seem to explain it properly. I want them to know that i have my reasons and i want them to try and accept it. I just wish they could understand that different people can handle different things. For other people it might sound silly but i cant handle anger at all. I dont do well with yelling or mean and hateful words. I am probably more fragile then most of the people i know but i hope I'm not the only one as sensitive as me. I simple act of indifference can make me break down in tears. If you happen to listen to me 99% of the time i will dwell on the 1% you ignored. I cant handle being ignored even a little bit. I cant handle being left out even a little bit either. So be gentle when you are with me. Please just be careful because I'm always on the ledge ready for the fall. Ya okay so typing all this stuff that i think about and feel on a regular basis really has me thinking that there is definitely something mentally wrong with me. I am most definitely a freak. Its my own fault really, I'm sure it is, i must have done something at some point to make this happen. I just want it all to be okay again but fairytales, I've recently been told, dont exist so theres no point in trying to gain a happy ever after that will never happen especially for someone like me.
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NonfiksiI really just wanted to talk and try to sort out the things that rush through my mind. This is me trying something new to un jumble my fudgy brain. Its better then the cutting right? Ya i mean it has to be better but I'm not sure its as productive...
