On the run

The day she left me

Broken

That's all I felt

Tears cascading down my red cheeks as I struggled for air

I didn't know the point of life

I didn't want to be here anymore

No one would miss me

I've lost my child and my soul mate all because of another fucking mistake

This time she can't blame me

This time I was drunk

This time it was her fault

She got a job promotion, we went out to celebrate with food and wine. It was romantic and perfect. We shared an electric kiss and an old couple clapped for us which made me lightly blush as she took my hand.
She asked her dad to pick us up as we'd got a taxi here and both had alcohol. She went home to look after Millie our baby daughter and I asked to be dropped off with my two mates Neil and Jack.

We went to a club. I didn't drink that much more alcohol as we didn't mix too well. Neil told me not to drink it, he said it smells funny. I said don't worry I'll be fine...

I wasn't

Some bastard spiked it

A really hot group of girls our age entered the club, the three of us pretty spaced out.

I don't like to call it the word cheated or slept with. I don't know what I call it except for another stupid mistake. I don't need any more of these in my life.

I woke up back in my usual bed. Everything was a usual Sunday morning. Rachel and Millie go to a baby meeting, so I knew they were out. I freshened up and went to get some toast to which I found a note on the fridge:

Max

I know what happened last night and I know it was another mistake. I can't handle covering for you all the time. I can't put Millie in danger. By next weekend me and Millie will be living with my parents until I can buy a small flat.
I know you have nowhere to go so I didn't kick you out. I want you to know that this apartment from now on is yours. You have to pay for everything. You have a stable job so I know you can.
I'm really sorry but I feel as though you cheated on me but I know you couldn't help it. It just was unfortunate timing and I want to keep our child safe.
I won't let you have contact with her or me and I will tell her why when she's old enough. I hope one day you have sorted your self out and can meet your daughter.
Here is some money to get some help.
I will love you always and so will Millie.
Rachel xx

I fell to the ground hurting my back. I herd it click. I herd a snap just like the feeling in my heart.

We're back to the beginning. Tears gently rolling down.

The more I thought about everything the harder the tears fell. The more I struggled for air. The more I wanted to turn back time and undo all of my mistakes.

Practice makes perfect

No practice of any kind can make me perfect.