Chase and I have been friends for... quite a while actually. 3 years? We met in 6th grade, around the end of the year. We were in class and the teacher had just called me out for "not paying attention," chase was sitting next to me doodling on his paper. I never thought much of him, I mean yeah he was cute. Probably not for most people but for me damn.
Anyway he mumbled "bitch you don't even know what you're talking about..." under his breath when the teacher yelled at me, which made me laugh. He looked at me surprised so did everyone in the class but I couldn't stop laughing. Then chase bursted into laughter and soon the teacher sent us to the principal. We ended up not going to the principal because we were bad kids and went to the library. We talked and exchanged numbers.
Now here we are, 2 years into a friendship.
Yuck, friendship.
I didn't think of him as anything more than a friend until the 2nd year. Now, in the first year of high school here I am about to announce my love for him.
I have it all planned out. Well my friend and I planned it out. On the first day we met, May 23rd, today I'm going to tell him. He and I will be in the library studying because, we want good grades even though we are bad kids. I'll be testing him on the latest quiz for psychology. I'll ask him the question, out of the blue "what would you do if I said I liked you?" Which, is somewhat related to what we're learning in psychology right now. Heartbreak.
I'm kind of, maybe, a lot freaking out. I have no more nails to bite. Jess says it'll be fine and he likes me too but what if he doesn't? And I just ruin our whole friendship? I don't want chase and I not to be friends, he's been there for me so much. It's frightening to think he may not be in my life anymore just beside of one mistake I might make.
But my like for him is nagging me so much it's a risk I'm willing to take.
"Okay that's the bell Isabelle," jess says grinning and patting my back, "you'll be fine!" She repeats over and over but I can't help thinking it might not be.
"But- whatever fuck this, lets get this over with," the teacher yells at me for my language just as we're leaving the classroom, which makes me chuckle because just this day the teacher yelled at me and that's how chase and I met. "You go!" Jess yells after me as we part our ways. I make my way to the library where chase and i are meeting.
When I get there I can see chase sitting down just unpacking his bag on the table. My heart skips a beat making me want to vomit. He looks as cute as ever. His curly brown hair and chocolate brown eyes. He has two dimples on the side of his mouth that always show when he smiles. I feel like I'm going to melt in my place. But his looks are just a perk, he has an amazing personality. Over the years I've learned many things about him.
He has a sarcastic sense of humor, that always makes me laugh even when I'm crying. He's adorably kind, also a bit stupidly kind. whenever he sees a worm on the sidewalk he moves it to the grass, or when a birds in the road when we're in the parking lot he waits until it moves away because he doesn't want to risk its life. But he's also kind to humans, always giving money to the homeless and buying presents, and cheering people up when they're sad. Cheering me up just by his presence.
I've learned about his life, that his mom has cancer and his dad and him are trying to live off the money they get and paying bills to his mothers treatment. I try to help as much as I can but sometimes it's not much.
He's learned so much about me, that I have a older brother and a baby sister. My parents died in a crash so my brother is trying to take care of us on his own since he is 23. He helps out a bunch always baby sitting.
