The school bell rang , finally its the weekend and i can have some rest . My school week was rough i'm not having enough sleep at night but at school i'm dead sleepy and this sleeping issues is effecting my grades ; i can barely focus on my lessons and this can be a serious issue i'm done with my parents picking up fights with me . i need to find a solution as soon as possible.
i went home changed into a sweater , black ripped jeans and converse then i found my way to the park , i love going there on weekends because most of the people are partying so its empty. i brought a book with me . It was so calm a bit dark even when it was about 17:45 . i took a walk around while listening to music with my earphones on and admiring the sky and the giant trees . i stood up at the end of this little hill at the end of the park that takes to a scary dark forest which no one dare to enter , i closed my eyes and sighed heavily with no purpose suddenly from no where a felt that a hand from behind grabbed me violently i turn terrified to see who was it .. it was Henry , he looked at me with a scared face then screamed into my face :
" - what the hell were you doing ? " he asked
"- trying to kill myself ?" i said sarcastically rolling my eyes .
"- The fuck ? You may be depressed , but suicide is a permanent solution for temporary problems."
"- Note the sarcasm idiot !" i said not believing what i've heard
"- It's okay you shouldn't hide it anymore , you can say whatever is bothering you!"
"- But-
" - Sometimes its better just to talk about right ?"
"- I-"
"- I know an excellent therapist , do you think i should call her up ?"
"- What ? "
"- Awh sweetheart no need to thank me ."
"- Dude- "
"- I mean i just saved your life ! "
" - What the Heck ?"
" - Shhh its rude to interrupt. "
" - Shut up you make me wanna kill my self for fuck sake ! "
" - Don't tell me you have a crush on me or something . Look , you will find someone way better than me who will be good enough for you." He said .
" - Just stab me already" i said frustrated .
" - Are you suicidal or anything ?"he asks worriedly
pouting i look at him in the eyes than walk pushing him away .
i came back home crying , i can't hold my tears , because every time i think things are getting well something happens and ruin it for me . Why am like this ? Why couldn't i be happy for a sec ? Great now Henry not only thinks i have a crush on him but also suicidal. now he will just tell everyone at school and i will get exposed .my life would be a nightmare.. how i'm gonna fix this ? i'm feeling completely worthless . i decided to call Lily and open up to her maybe ? after a long hesitation i felt that i'm having a break down so i made up my mind and called her .. even though some may think what happened wasn't this worthy or i'm being dramatic .. i've been through a lot and i can't explain or describe how i feel.
i called Lily over 7 times and sent her more than 5 messages she didn't reply but she was posting pictures on Instagram ..It's funny that the people who you care the most about, don't even bother replying to your messages. Your best friend who you thought would be your forever friend, doesn't even bother asking you if you're okay, because in reality she doesn't even bother messaging you. If you don't start chatting, then there will never be a conversation.i'm just confused as to how it all changes? We used to chat for many hours straight, and now if I am not the one starting the chat there will never be one. Like does she really care? when i needed her the most she wasn't there for me like i was to here .
I stood in front of mirror , whipped my tears and stared for about 10 minutes than i said looking at the reflection that i've never liked ; You should stay strong , you can do this you are more than this . its not a big deal get over it . and i forced a big smile . i wanted to distract my self so i logged into my Facebook account and talk to Avan ; my internet friend...
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lucifer with An angel's eyes
Romancea story of a girl who met her soulmate at the wrong time later on she regrets not realizing that he was perfect and not falling for him form the begging was a big mistake . but is it too late ?
