Phat or Thick?

ch.13

Chanel

"What is it?" She sniffled.

Rashawn: Mckell was the one who killed your mom.

I got up from under his arms , then stood up away from him and looked at him in disbelief.

Chanel: How could you let him do something like that to MY MOM Rashawn.

Rashawn: Look he didn't know it was your mom. I told him not to but when I went back to her she was already dead. I'm sorry, please forgive me.

He walked closer to me and held both of my hands and kissed them. I snatched away and looked at him with anger and hurt in my eyes.

Chanel: BUT U LET THIS HAPPEN! IT'S YOUR FAULT THAT MY MOM'S DEAD!

Rashawn: No nel just let me explain..

Chanel: I already heard what u have to say! GET OUT AND DON'T COMEBACK. I DON'T EVER WANNA SEE YO SORRY ASS AGAIN!

I love you nel and I'm sorry, was the last thing he said before he left. When he left I started throwing things across my room then I cried my eyes out again holding my stomach. The pain was so bad that I felt it in my stomach and soul. Then I prayed.

Chanel: Lord please give me the strength to get through this. Why is all this happening to me? What did I do wrong god? Did I do anything to deserve this?

"No u didn't Chanel". I opened my eyes and looked around the room. Nobody was there.

Chanel: Jesus?!

I heard a slight, gentle laugh. "No Chanel it's me, your mother."

Chanel: Momma?! Is that really you?!

Monique(Chanel's mom): Yes it is. Im sorry Chanel. For putting you though all that I've put you though. After your dad died I became depressed and lost my self, nobody knew what was wrong with me. I blamed you for your father's death which, is something the I should have never done and something that I regret. I didn't take care of myself and forgot that I had you too take care of too. I wish that I could've told you this when I was alive but now it's too late. But I finally found myself and now I'm free. I'm with god and your father now in God's kingdom. Just remember that I love you Chanel baby and I'll always be with you.

I felt a palm on my cheek and held my hand on top on my cheek.

Chanel: I love you too mom.

Then I woke up. I cried myself to sleep. That dream felt so real. Maybe it was my mom trying to tell me that she really is sorry.

Two weeks later

That day Amiah and Angie came over to comfort me. I couldn't ask for better girl friends. I guess I've been handling my mom's death okay. I still think about that dream I had though. Life's been good. I'm graduating highschool with honors next month. I FINALLY got my license and im moving out when I graduate with my little brother. Its a apartment complex. It's not much but it's enough for just me and my brother. Plus I don't wanna be living with Amiah and her parents for too long even though they said I could stay as long as i need to but I rather move. But one day imma get a huge house and my brother can live with me until he finds a place. Oh, and my birthday is in a couple days! I don't even know what I wanna do. Im just waiting for somebody to surprise me. Lol. Your gurl also got a promotion! Yep I be puttin in that work. I haven't talked to Rashawn lately either, im just not ready yet. But anyways I gotta get ready for school.

Rashawn

Man. I anit talk to Chanel in two weeks. Two weeks! People think a nigga goin crazy cuz I've been spazzin on everybody lately. I've been shootin people left and right if they said or did ONE thing that I didn't like and that anit me. Ang told me that her birthday comin up so I should talk to her before so I don't just pop up and ruin her day an shit. I plan on talkin to her today after school and then go to her surprise birthday party and give her a present that I kno she gone love. Things at the trap been lookin up. But I had somebody killin my workers. We found out that it was the Cuban Cartel. The boss sent workers to America to try and take over my shit I'm assumin. The Last thing I need is some Pablo ass nigga trynna take over my shit. Anit no way its gone go down like that. My father worked too hard for this shit. Oh and ya boi varsity of the football team. Yep Yep I know I'm just that nigga. Anyways I gotta get ready to go to this wack ass school. I swear I can't wait to I graduate.

Chanel

I walked in school and went to all of my periods then lunch came and I sat with my usual squad.

Angie: There's Rashawn.

I looked over to where Angie pointed and Rashawn was standing in a corner talking to the niggas he deals drugs with. I'm not gonna lie, he did look good but I wasn't ready to talk to him yet.

Chanel: And?

Ang: Don't act like that. Just talk to him. Because I kno he misses yo thick ass and he probably misses somethin else too. "Wink wink". She laughed.

Chanel: Whatever, he probably found a new skinner girl and we haven't even done anything and I don't plan on it either.

Desire: Yall anit did nothin yet!?

Chanel: Nope nothing else besides make out.

Promise: Not everybody's a hoe like you and angie.

We all busted out laughing except desire and ang. They jus sat there lookin salty but they soon joined in too. I needed a good laugh like this with everything that's been going on in my life. The bell rang and I went to the rest of my classes then school was over. I walked to my car to go to work when somebody pulled up on the side of me.

Rashawn: Get in the car ma.

Chanel: No thanks I gotta go to work.

Rashawn: I just wanna talk. I haven't talked to u in weeks. Come on.

I got in the passager seat of his Porsche.

Chanel: Talk.

Rashawn: How u been.

Chanel: fine. Considering that my mother just died, but yea I'm fine. I said sarcastically.

Rashawn: That's what I wanted to talk to you about. I'm sorry Chanel. I don't know how many times I gotta say it but I'll keep sayin it till you forgive me. I was almost the one who killed her if she had'nt told me that you were her daughter. I planned on askin your mom questions about where somebody was that I was lookin for then I was gonna ask her about you and why she was out on the streets like that. So I had my crew clean her up until I came back. When I did Mckell killed her because he said that she was annoyin. I cussed his ass out after and I felt bad because I was the cause of your mom dieing and we only get one mom. It honestly made me think bout stop doin what I do.

Chanel: I forgive you Rashawn. It wasn't your fault. You weren't the one who killed her. I just felt so betrayed by you. I'm sorry too I shouldn't have acted like you killed her. But your not the main one I want an apology from.

Rashawn: I promise you'll get that apology. I love you nel.

Chanel: I love you too Shawnee. We both laughed.

We kissed and I got butterflies like always. Then I pulled back.

Chanel: Um I gotta go before I'm late.

Rashawn: Ight text me later ok?

Chanel: Ok I will. Bye.

Rashawn: See you later ma.

I got out of the car and drove to work. It feels good to be talking to Rashawn again.

I hope guys enjoyed this chapter.

I'll start giving Amiah and Chanel's lil bro(Chris) a pov.

Chanel and Rashawn made up!❤