Shorts.

The light.

I sat, alone, numb and broken, in the room of which she laid.
I felt the numbness suddenly fall away, and the pain wash over me as if it were a wave of the deep blue ocean. The endless pain I'd have to endure was right in front of me, calling me to jump in and to start swimming, well, sinking.
So I did.
My body lurched with every sob I encountered, the pain racking through my body.
Each tear felt like acid, burning my skin as they fell into the abyss of blackness I was enveloped in.
With every short breath, my throat began to close up even more, and my vision became even more blurry than before.
I curled into a tight ball, wishing for me to go with her.
She couldn't leave me like this..
I clutched my phone in my hands tightly, asking for any sign of possible hope.
My body began to ache, and I began to give up.
I couldn't do anything except cry.
Each individual tear was a scream for help, with every new one getting louder and louder, but no one could hear me.
No one could see me.
I was invisible.
My tears burnt my face even more, as they began to get heavier with every gasp of air I could take, my chest becoming tighter, and my legs huddled further and further towards my chest.
My hands unwrapped themselves from my legs, as I slid them harshly up the side of my face, towards my hairline, eventually entangling my fingers within the fine strands of hair which curled naturally as they fell around my structure.
My eyes were squeezed tightly shut, but I could still see her, still hear her, as if she were still there, still alive.
But when I opened my eyes, she was still gone, laying motionless on the floor in front of me, her skin much paler than it used to be, and her dark hair looking so fragile, as if it would shatter into a million indescribable pieces if someone were to touch it.
She was well and truly gone.
The one source of light I had in my life had dimmed, and faded into my abyss.
My body shook vigorously, as I tried to somehow subdue the pain, but it wasn't going away.
The tears started to dissipate, and I found I couldn't cry any liquid anymore, only cruelly cool air, the type I was trying desperately to take into my lungs.
I was suffocating in the darkness.
The thing I once used to know how to suffer in silence inside of, until she came around, and showed me how amazing she was, the light obnoxiously radiating from her.
I used to hate it, but I realised she was what I needed.
But she was gone.
Gone forever.
A soft, warm, familiar hand pressed cautiously against my retching body.
I could sense the light radiating from it, the warmth fell straight through to my core.
I slowly began to stop crying, the dried streaks of my tears starting to sink into my skin.
My body felt limp, and as I unwrapped myself, I fell under a spell, falling unconscious.
My eyelids felt heavy as I tried to open them, and then suddenly all I could see was white.
And a figure.
The figure was pitch black, like my abyss, but as it turned around, to look towards me, my world faded to black, and she was the only source of light I had, she blinded me, but in a good way.
She moved towards me, her hand outstretched.
I looked up at her, and her smile lit up my world.
It was small, but it was meaningful, and warm.
No more fake, cold light.
I was in my haven.
I lifted my trembling hands, and placed them in hers.
She helped me up, and her gleaming chestnut eyes opened.
"Welcome" she spoke, the words following out her mouth like gold.
Her voice surrounded me in warmth, and memories, melting away all my sorrow and fears.
I had finally reached her, and she had reached back.
I closed my eyes, sighing happily, but when I opened them again, she was gone.
Except she wasn't.
I was emitting light, the locket around my neck, almost identical to hers, was gleaming, like her eyes, her beautiful, beautiful eyes.
Then I felt the tears start to wash over me again, but this time, they were happy tears.
I had finally found my light.
It was inside me, and deep down, it was always there.
She was just there to bring it to the surface.
She didn't know it, but she was my light. And now that light is emitting from me, a part of her has placed itself in my heart, and I know, that I'll never let it go, because it's my lantern in the night, my hope in the abyss, and the strong memories of the person who saved me.
The person who made me whole, without even knowing it.