Lost

Shall I Join

A/N so this is the end...
(Jacks POV)
"Ma-mark... please stay." I hear loud repetitive beeping. I look over at screens I did not understand. But one caught my eye. One I'm sure we all know Mark's heart was slowing. Nurses and doctors start rushing in. Pushing me out of the way. I go sit sit in the corner. I cry and cry and cry. I cry until I am put into a slumber like death.
*Dream*
"Awww... Markimoo! Haha!"
"Jack, it's our anniversary!!"
"I know! I know!"
"Jack... I want you to have this." He hands me a silver engraved ring. He puts it on my hand, and kisses me.
*End Dream*
I wake up... Doctor speaking in the background. "It's the Mom's choice weather or not we take him off of life support. Not his." He gestures to me.
"Um... excuse me, what are you talking about?" I ask the doctor. He walks over to me. "Mark will.... Mark is not going to wake up... he is in a permanent coma..." I look at him... tears are brimming in my eyes. He looks at me and says, "The mom is here, she will choose wether or not to take him off of life support." He turns around and walks toward the doors. "Mrs. Fischbach. What do you choose?" I over hear him talking. "I... I—... please... just take it off of life support." She looks and lets out a cry. "Jack... come here." I walk over to her. "Jack when I kicked mark out of the house... I didn't expect him to come and stay with you... but you were, and still are marks best friend, boyfriend if needed. He was my favorite son... and... I just want you to know that he loved you. He loved you so much." She was crying, while spilling out these meaningful words. I walk over to Mark. "Lets... let's just do it." I place my hand on Mark's heart... his mom came over and placed her hand on his cheek... "I love you Mark. I always will love you." My tears fill with tears now, a tear slipping down my cheek. It hits his his forehead. "Let's do this." The doctor cuts off the life support. I feel Mark's heart slow to a stop. His mom walked over to me and hugged me, bawling into my shoulder.
(Quote by Jack)
Learn your fears. Embrace them. Then nobody will be able to use them. I get home. My biggest fear is death... witch I long so much now. I so desperately want to be in Mark's arms again. I so want to listen to his heartbeat. I walk out of the hospital feeling empty, nothing inside me. Just sadness.
(Time skip)
I took home the razor that Mark used on his arms. I picked it up. I made one deep cut in my wrist.
One... lost my loftily wed
Two... bloods dripping on my leg
Three one more cut... then I'm dead.
I dig the razor deep into my wrist, not letting out one single cry. I think of my mom, dad, and everything else that I took for granted in my life. Everything went black...
"Mark?" I see a silhouette of a man. He walks closer to me. "Jack, he runs up to me and hugs me. "Oh Jack!!! I kiss him. But then he disappears. Everything goes white. I see a stair case. Mark is standing at the bottom. "C'mon Jackaboy... let's go home." He takes my hand and we walk up the stairs. I hear kids laughing swing sets creaking, and adults talking. I walk in the gates with Mark. This is it, my toll has been paid... the daily pain of life is over. I walk in the gates with mark and see all of my family greeting me at the gate. My grandma... grandpa cousins. Now I understand. Life is not about the journey, it's about the choices you make. My choice was loving Mark!