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"What?! So you think i'm forcing myself to come back? I wanted you from the beginning! Once you left I couldn't figure out how to get back in contact with you. I been hoping to see you for so long, and I finally see you again with a baby that belongs to me and you. You don't know how much I want to be in both of your lives! I want both of you!"
I was lost for words. I just stood up, walked towards him and grabbed both of his hands and laced his fingers with mine and kissed him.
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Did I really think it was a good idea to get with Justin? Can I really trust him?
I just watched him stand there holding me. His beautiful brown eyes gazing right into mine. The smirk he had on his face. And his soft pink lips that were just touching mine not so long ago. I think I want to give him a try. I want to give our family a try.
"Justin.."
"Yes?" He said pushing a piece of hair out of my face and tucking it behind my ear.
"I want you to stay with us. I want to try this family thing." I said grabbing a hold of both of his hands.
"Me too baby." The word ¨Baby¨ coming from his mouth made my heart explode. It gave me this weird feeling. It was a good feeling.
"So what's gonna be our living situation? Are we living with you or are you living with us?" I asked.
"Well for now I can just keep coming over until I can find us a home." He said
"Okay we can do that."
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¨Jamie can you come here for a second?¨ I called out for my daughter who was playing with her dolls in her room. ¨Here I come mommy!¨ She yelled from her room. Me and Justin decided to tell her that we will be moving in together soon as a family. Justin has been looking at houses for us. We was thinking about surprising Jamie, but we thought it would be good to tell her now so she can start getting use to Justin being around more often. ¨Yes mommy?¨ She said as she came and sat next to me on the couch. ¨How would you feel if me, you, and daddy all got a home together?¨ All I could see from her was a big smile plastered upon her face. ¨ARE YOU KIDDING ME MOMMY! THAT WOULD BE GREAT! OH MY GOSH DADDY IS LIVING WITH US!¨ She was so excited. She ran over to Justin and hugged him. I just watched and thought about how great this family would be.
Jamie had went back to her room to continue playing with her dolls, so that left me and Justin alone. Justin was sitting on the couch next to me on the laptop still looking for houses. I had my legs crossed and my head leaning on his shoulder watching as he looked for houses. I really did want Justin to be in my life. Every time I was around him I got butterflies. I haven't felt this way since my last relationship, which was with Adam. Me and Adam dated for 2 years until he started to ¨Change¨ Adam developed a really bad drinking problem. This is back when I still lived with my parents I was 17 and he was 19. Yes he was drinking underage, which just made it worst. He would come to my house after every drink and call my phone saying he was outside. I knew he was drunk so I never let him in. I would have to go outside. One day he called me while he was drunk and told me to come outside. I came outside and in his car was a girl. She was the prettiest girl I've ever seen. I think her name was Michelle. He grabbed me by my wrist and said he hates me and loves her and that he just used me for sex and I was a ugly slut. I was hurt by his words. He pushed me aside and drove off with her in the car with him. Every since then I was scared to date anyone. I didn't want to get hurt again. With Justin I wasn't afraid. I felt like I can trust him.
¨I think I found one.¨ Justin said interrupting my thoughts. ¨This is the perfect house. Let's go check it out tomorrow.
