I'm fine (Sequel to I'm bored) //Markiplier Fanfic\\

Seven

Alex

I woke up to the familiar sound of marks phone buzzing away. I didn't want to add to his frustration and show him I had woken up, so I stayed in my position with closed eyes.

I felt so bad for him. I'm weighing him down form living his life. It will just be better when I'm gone. He won't be able to hurt anymore.

"Shh." He silently yells at his phone. I smiled at him. I love him so much.

His voice mumbled curse words as he exited the door. I rolled my head over and watched his silhouette through the blurry glass. I watch him pace back and forth, his hand coming up and wiping his face a few times. My heart melted with guilt. I hate seeing him like this. I want the happy mark.

He walked back in and I reached up and clicked on my light. He looked at me with wide eyes, but relaxed when he saw I was awake and okay.

"I'm sorry for waking you." He said softly, walking toward me, his feet dropping at my bed. His voice was so raspy, alsmot like he hadn't slept in days... There's the guilt again.

"No dont worry about it." I said as his hand travled up to my head, playing with a few strands of hair. I love him playing with my hair. "who was that?"

"It was jack. He heard what happened. So him, Ryan and Matt are gonna come and visit. If you don't want them to come in they said they would wait in the waiting room." He said, hand gliding down and stroking my cheek.

"no, they can come visit." I said taking his hand and holding it in mine. "I think j look fine enough.

"You look beautiful." He said, his voice cracking as he lent down and kissed my cracked lips. He seemed so pained by the kiss. Not like he didn't want to kiss me, rather like I was already gone. He leaned back and set his forehead against mine. "I love you so much ally."

"I love you too Mark." My hands came up and caressed the back of his neck, playing with the small hairs on the nape of his neck. He loves when I do that. It soothed him.

Tears welled in his eyes, as well as mine.
Maybe it won't be better if I die. God, I need to stay here. I can't stand mark being a complete wreck for the rest if his life. Just because of ne. He'd probably never be the same.

"I don't want to cry anymore..." Mark said with a sad smile. He was trying to lighten the mood but at this point nothing can lighten me up. So ill just put on my mask and pretend.

Eventually I'll be fine.