Youth of Lily (English Version)

TWENTIETH RUN

That light, that light, please illuminate my sins

Where I can't turn back the red blood is flowing down

Deeper, I feel like dying every day

Please let me be punished

Please forgive me for my sins

Please

"Namjoon a, what should I do? I'm really sick of this. Why everything turned to be like this?"

"Taehyung, what's happened? Where are you? Taehyung. Kim Taehyung ...." Namjoon jerked up from his bed when he heard the voice came from his phone. He tried to search on his surrounding for the boy who supposed to be there. Where did he go? Did he go home without letting Namjoon knew?

It was in the middle of night when everyone has been sleeping, and so on with Namjoon. He needed one so badly. But his rest was disturbed by a phone call.

Taehyung's voice was hoarse and trembling. He cried and cried without answering Namjoon's question.

"I really want things back to be like before."

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He was running endlessly. Running and kept running. There was nowhere he aimed to. He was only following the same circle. Kept meeting the same dead end. He couldn't get out from this maze. His surrounding was dark. He deserved no light in his life. He was a sinner. And no matter how hard he cried and screamed for someone to get him out, there was no one there. The only thing that was watching for him was the small figure that was holding toys while staring at him in every corner he ran to. His mistake. His judgment. He was waiting for him to do the same mistake to judge him once again. And he has lost at this fight. Once again, he made the same mistake. He let Jimin died the way his brother died.

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"Taehyung a, follow me. I'll show you how to draw it."

There was Taejun who was holding a red crayon on the white paper. Small Taehyung watched the boy drew a line and he tried to draw the same with the other crayon. Occasionally he dragged his line over his brother's. Taehyung tried to disturb his brother, but the latter one didn't get annoyed. Instead he got his revenge on Taehyung's arm. Laughter was everywhere. They were smiling at each other like there was nothing to be worried.

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"Hyung ... Hyung .... I got an award from school. Look at my drawing."

The small Taehyung was running to his older brother who he had seen standing inside the small alley near their house with one of his friend. They were talking seriously before but Taehyung didn't aware of it. He just wanted to brag to his brother.

"Whoa Taehyungie, you are amazing." Instead of his brother, it was the other boy who praised him.

"Who is this person, Hyung?"

Taehyung got a strange feeling when he saw the boy. There was something different with the boy. He hid him self behind his brother. He didn't like the way that boy interacted with his brother or his stare.

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"Taehyung, where is your brother?" It was a late night and Taejun hasn't come back home. That's why his father asked Taehyung when he just arrived home from work.

The small Taehyung stopped playing with his toys and stared at his father with innocent gaze and kind of pissed off. "Hyung said he want to go out with his friend. I wasn't allowed to follow them."

Taehyung already knew at the first sight that he wouldn't like the boy who came with Taejun. The boy took most of his brother's time from Taehyung.

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Taejun was fighting with their father. Taehyung couldn't enter his house. He was afraid that his father would scold him too. He cried while holding his toy. He hoped for the noisy event passed quickly. He wanted to get into the house. He wanted to play with his brother.

Why were they fighting again?

Why their father got angry with Taejun?

What was Taejun's fault?

Did he eat his meal while playing with his toys? Or did he not want to eat green? His father always scolded Taehyung for that.

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Taehyung was crying while running. His small steps got stumbled several times but he didn't stop. He should find someone to wake his brother up.

Someone please help his brother.

There was a red pool inside the bathroom. His brother was sleeping inside there. He would get cold. Taehyung couldn't wake his brother. It must be really hurt. That was why he was bleeding. Taehyung always cried painfully whenever he fell down and scratched his knees.

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"Taehyung a, can you promise me something?"

"What is it, Hyung?"

"Live your life happily. You should be happy no matter what happens."

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Taehyung was walking through the alley while wiping out tears from his cheek. While fixing his jacket's hood, he strode his way to the place in the end of alley. His hellhole. But it was never felt any better to be here than before. This was the place he supposed to stay, not anywhere else.

There was a noisy sound inside. His father probably has been drunk again. He has been drunk since Taejun's death. That was perfectly what he needed.

"It is your fault that you gave birth to a monster like that!"

"Stop calling your own child as a monster."

"You knew what he did. He only brings shame for the family."

His mother tried to say something to defend what his father said but the man slapped her furiously. Taehyung wanted to enter the room to stop his father from abusing his mother but his feet halted in the way of it when he heard what his father said the next.

"You know what? I'm glad that he is died because if not I rather to kill him with my own hand. I told him that. How dare he said to me to let him the way he is born. He is a boy."

They were fighting about Taejun.

His father was the one who driving Taejun to death. He was the one who told Taejun to kill him self. How could he say something like that to his own flesh? Taehyung could feel his blood started raging. He couldn't see what was in front of him anymore. His ears were ringing loud. His breath hitched. Taehyung grabbed anything that he could grab on the way and marched into the room.

"TAEHYUNG A!"

He heard his mother's scream but he didn't stop his doing. She also held him but he casted his mother aside. Taehyung didn't see anything but red. And before he realized it his hands has also covered by red. Blood.

His mother cried while hugging him. She desperately tried to stop him.

What was just happened?

The evil was lying down in the floor.

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