Panda-Kitty Serye

To: Panda

It all started with a "hello 😁" & "hi". At first akala ko magpapafavor ka lang or what, pero dumating sa point na madalas ka na nagtatanong ng random things.

During our last summer, dun na nagsimula ang panda-kitty serye natin. One day during the summer, i was hanging out with my cousins nang bigla ka nagchat. You said u have a crush on someone and i asked kung sino then sabi mo I'll meet her on july 11 pa ofc nacurious ako and why so tagal pa. Then you kept on describing her.

Every day halos magkachat na tayo buong araw. Walang nga atang araw na hindi tayo naguusap. Until one day, dahil sa pangungulit ko, bumigay ka.

Napaamin ka ng wala sa oras 😂 that lucky girl pala was me.

I didnt expect that kasi bruh. Youre like the MOST intelligent sa school. Sa WHOLE school. And everyone knows you. Then there's me, known as nobody, known as bogsa and kalog.

At first akala ko wala lang, nantitrip ka lang pero u told me to visit your twitter account. And viola! Literally, i was shocked. Yung mga tweets mo, sakto sa nangyayari between us before.

Then patagal ng tagal, ganun parin pakikitungo natin sa isa't isa. Naging close tayo, we shared a lot of topics, etc.

Until one day, my manliligaw came. I fell inlove with his words but unfortunately he's a good liar. Then yun nagkagusto ako sakanya then I said goodbye to you then one time he lied to me sinaktan niya ko then you were there to comfort me.

After weeks bumalik tayo sa dati. We became close friends na ulit. Then you started sending heart emojis and sinasabi ko wag muna but tbh, keleg to the bones ako.

Unti unti nang nahuhulog ang loob ko sayo. With your efforts, sinong di mafafall dun? We even set time kung kelan tayo gigising and matutulog 😂 dapat gising na tayo ng 8am and hanggang 10pm tayo maguusap.

Kahit ano naalng mapagusapan basta makauspa lang natin ang isa't isa.

Pero nagbago ang lahat nang bumalik na tayo sa klase. Maraming nag bago.

Nawala communication natin for several weeks. Nagkaron na tayo ng sari sariling mundo.

One time i stalked your twitter account. I saw your replies with you classmate and saw pictures of you and her pa nga e so i thought, may something sa inyong dalawa so that's why tuluyang umiwas na ko.

Yes nagkaron ako ng crush, pero inaadore ko lang siya. Then lately lang, my best friend told me everything. Kumakapit ka parin pala. Umaasa ka parin pala. Nagaantay ka parin pala. I felt guilty kasi napaasa na pala kita without me knowing it.

You asked my best friend kung ano masakit, maglet go, maghold on, or magmove on. I just want to tell you that, please dont let go, dont move on, just hold on, just wait. The feeling is mutual kasi e. Hindi ko pa kaya harapin ka ngayon.

But now, I'm too late. Very late.

Nasaktan ka and ofc magmomove on ka. I'm very very sorry. I dont have the guts to talk to you in person coz you're the highest of all the students. Ikaw lang naman kasi yung SC President. Kaya sa twitter ko nalang nilalabas lahat. Kasi alam kong mababasa mo din yun.

These past few weeks, walang araw na hindi ko binibisita twitter account mo. Lagi ako nagaabang sa tweets mo. I kept on leaving messages kahit alam kong di mo naman rereplyan or kahit iseen man lang. I understand kung bakit mo iniignore yun e, because youre busy. Busy or umiiwas? Ayokong pangunahan ka.

I even prayed na sana makasama ako sa mmc para makita ka or possible makausap ka (di lang yun ofc para mairepresent din yung school). Pero mukhang magiging imposible na. Kapag makakatabi nga lang tayo sa canteen umiiwas ka na e.

Thank you kasi ikaw ang kauna-unahang boy best friend ko. Ikaw yung nagcomfort sakin during the summer. Thank you kasi dahil sayo naiwasan kong magmura nung mga panahong close pa tayo. Thank you kasi pinaramdam mo sakin na importante ako noon. Thank you for the love. Thank you for the friendship. Thank you sa lahat.

I'm sorry kung super annoying ako. I'm sorry kung nasaktan kita. I'm sorry kung napaasa kita. I'm sorry kasi nagkulang ako before. I'm sorry kasi pinagsisiksikan ko pa sarili ko sayo. I'm sorry kung ang trying hard ko. I'm sorry kung umaasa parin ako na may chance na bumalik yung dati. I'm sorry sa lahat ng nagawa kong mali.

The last thing you said, 'Moved on na ko men' broke me into million pieces. I know na hindi sapat yung mga paramdam ko sayo these past few weeks pero pinagsisisihan ko yung pagiwan ko sayo. I know nasaktan kita before, naging manhid ako, napaasa kita, and those are my biggest mistakes. Hindi ka dapat sinasaktan, hindi ka dapat pinapaasa kasi you're one of a kind. You're very special. And you're known as the 'Jessie SanB' of RMM for pete's sake! Ang tanga na lang ang manakit sayo, at ako yun.

I won't forget about you. You will always be my Panda. Thank you for everything, and I'm sorry....