Idk what's been going on with my mood lately honestly I've been on a dramatic roller coaster. First the nursing home trust to overdose my grandpa and then my boyfriend and I get in a fight because I was being to emotional can all my emotions be shut off except for the happy one and loving one. I hate fighting with him it doesn't make anything better it doesn't make him love me more honestly right now I think he hates me I just want to call my boyfriend cuddle with him and forget everything because he's my world and I hate our fights honestly it kills me to think after every fight does he hate me more? He doesn't even want me he says poems better cause it doesn't bitch like me and he called me a kid tbh at this point I think porn is better for him maybe then he'll know that he misses me and if he doesn't miss me like I miss him at this very moment maybe he needs porn more then he'll ever need me😭😭😭😭
