The start of a new school
New home,new friends, boy friends,
HOSTEL :'(
The new school
Was big the kids that go their was
Preschool, middle school, hi school,hostel
We have thirteen classes, there was only ten kids in one class.
My favourite class was maths sir Bolt god sexy I like him a lot!
He like me to but never go var only friends he was the hostel
Father to to I did see him a lot we talk about any thing
The hostel was a scary place it was one of my fears
It look like a hospital smell like it to,
Fucking lot of rules!.I have one roommate
Melanie she is:
Shy,ugly,skinny,dirty, not my friend, good girl
I had two friends in hostel,shantell and nickoll
Sitting on my bed charting with Hendrik just phone sex
Shantell and nickoll bursting in not even knocking
As fast as I hear the door opened pulling my hand out my jeans
Hay! what are u doing nickoll asked just texting
Looking up see nickoll swing her little bloody arm around
To show off she had cut her self I know it because of the look of
It thin tinny lines its a pity the see the poor excuse of a cut
I role my eyes hey I notes u cut two looking on my cut mark.
Its non of ur business look if u like to show of ur excuse for a
Cut u can just do it some ather place ur a joke!!
I jump up getting off my bed she just look at me in shock what the hell!!?
Nickoll scream,shantell run after me
What is up with u?
Look cutting is not something to be proud of
To show the world u cut...
Why do u cut?
Wat?that is non of ur business!!
I jus giver her my best fuck you look
Turning around I am going to have a smoke
Walking out the hostel going in the school's
Girls toilets two smoke we are not seposed to smoke in school grounds.
I just give a fuck so quickly put a sigeret but out
Going back to my room crying my self to sleep I don't like this
Hell of a place!!!!
I have only one year of school left because
My grade ten and eleven is this year done next year is
Twelve..I am sixteen years..
Its have been four mouths I can't take this I don't like it here I have
Not really have some one u can call friends the kids I know was just friendly
Not someone u can call friends no boyfriends I dated all the rest was
Ugly or gay.Sir bolt was getting married I don't want that.
My roommate melanie had gone out of hostel ....taking my blade
That I hide so good cutting up and down my length of my arm its not beep
Just a lot of marks the blood flow freely I look how the blood drip off my arm on my legs that I
Cross over one another on the single bed I never been so lonely in years.
Its by birthday I am ones a gen along hiding in my closest
Crying,calling my dad
Come take me home I don't like it here can't take this fucking place
Please hurry!!
Calia think about this u only have a year left can u just make
Ur school years done?
I cry out load nnnnno! Just the wait till the holiday I will come get u
Fine its next week enyway .and this weekend Hendrik say he will come
Vised.
Packing my bags going to my mom's
I am in my sexy riper black skinny jeans with my
BLACK VEIL BRIDE T-shirt, black tommy's.
strident my hair sweep it to the side take almost the half bottle of
Hair spray.take the eyeliner making my eyes dark put eye shadow
Dark purple and gray use light pink lip gloss
Sexy ass emo bitch
Walking to my mom's car some one come from behind pushed me not even thinking
I turn around with n swing of my fist I hit nickoll right in the face just like that
She fell to the floor all the anger in side me came out at ones I pick her up by
Her hair pulling it back let me see hair face clearly thinking were I should
Hit her next take her head in both my hands slam my head agents hers
Like three times she drop like a rock I kick her in the face till some one
Pull me from her .hands bloody my makeup mixed with blood Like it
Going out with a bang I walk away to my mom she look shock, what happened?
Just drive
Going to the bath room fixing my hair and makeup a gen
Thinking back I love to feel the blood on me something is truly amazing with
Me thinking to my self,Calia Hendrik is here and his brother, brother?
I greed Hendrik babe I missed u ,i did know u have a brother ,
Yes just friend bro.
We chat,drink coffee ,walk around ,
The next day Hendrik is going home will I see u a gen??
Yes I vised ur dad a lot sins ur not there me and him was hanging out.
Okay cool I will miss you I kiss him deeply I love you
I love you to more
