20.11.16
dear the heartbroken;
it feels like they're picking at you like flower petals. one second they love you, the next they don't. i know exactly how you're feeling, and it's like every night you can do nothing but stare at the ceiling and feel your heart physically shatter. and it makes your chest lurch in your throat, as you cover your mouth so nobody hears the silent sobs that rack your body. because their arms were like home, and you are so goddamn homesick.
let me tell you something really cliché.
it's going to be okay.
and even though it doesn't seem like it, it's going to be. and let me tell you the bad news first, you will probably still feel a little of the pain in 20 years time. you don't really get over it, you learn to tape up the gaping hole in your heart and move on. but the good news- you realize that when you're living up life to the fullest, that there are so many beautiful reasons to be happy.
have some faith in yourself. believe that you don't need them to love you back to achieve what you want to achieve. because in the end, when nobody else supports us, we have our own backs. and that's something beautiful once you learn the art of picking yourself back up.
try something new. get that piercing, or go to that place you've always wanted to go, watch that movie you've wanted to see for ages, stay at that person's house. it doesn't have to be drastic, only something you've always wanted to do.
pick up a new hobby. dance, art, acting, cooking, absolutely anything.
i once heard that you can literally write the pain out of yourself. it's not something that i necessarily believe, but who am i to judge that theory when i've never tried it.
write. write every single thing your feeling. don't miss out anything, even the finest details. burn it. rip it. shred it. throw a plate at the wall if it helps you release a bunch of mixed up feelings.
take care of yourself. i cannot emphasise this enough. take goddamn care of yourself. take a hot bath, paint your nails, do a face mask, drink 8 glasses of water a day, change your bed sheets and put on clean underwear and socks.
remember that your life is in the hands of god, who wouldn't put you through anything you couldn't handle. you are a strong, badass person who can achieve anything and everything you set your mind to.
work harder in school, study. knowledge is power, and power is something nobody can take away from you. the only thing i can say is focus on yourself and work on yourself. but please, don't do what i did and put your body through hell just to be like that girl he's talking to. work on yourself for you.
learn to work around what feels like that aching hole in your heart. remember that the longer it takes, the better the result. i guarantee you. i love you. and my messages are always open. you are not a fraction, or a half, you are a whole on your own.
everything heals. your soul heals, your heart heals, your mind heals, your body heals, you will heal. it may take what seems like forever but remember;
the longer it takes, the better the result.
