Draining Emotions

Numb

I don't want to feel
I've hit the end of my road
I'm not sure what is real
But I still fight toe to toe

As I get older I realize
Nothing in life is what it seems
I don't want to be patronized
Though what I've done can't be redeemed

I've fallen through the blackness
I slipped between the cracks
I'm broken down, cold and heartless
It's growing back but it still has a cast

Tired of this search for nothing
Wishing I was someone else
I can't go on in life knowing
I've lived my life caged on a shelf

But looking through the pointless nothings
I swear I'll break through this curse
If I can't hold on to something
My final days will be in a hearse