Filled with remorse and regret.
She was told to never freight.
They told her to find her own sunshine and to let down her barriers, to let people in..
She listened to them and now she cries herself to sleep, her heart wrapped in chains to keep what's left of it safe.
Her pain defines how she writes, breathes, speaks, and...lives.
At 16 years old she had nothing to look forward to but more mental pain, scars, promises that could never be fixed, white walls, and a heart that was going to shatter even more.
Filled with so much sadness that even the ones around her could feel it even though she smiled.
Filled with so much hate that all she could think about was hurting herself.
All the voices she heard everyday became louder and louder, telling her to cut deeper, burn herself more, just die..
After time; at midnight on a Monday and she took pills to numb the pain inside and she begged whoever that it would kill her.
She awoke the next morning to find that she was not dead..and very much alive.
She felt the world wanted to see her suffer even more.
She had gathered the courage to tell her councilor.
She was sent away to get help, but she still suffers to this very day..
