High School

November 17th, 2016

- "Nature's first green is gold, Her hardest hue to hold. Her early leaf's a flower; But only so an hour. Then leaf subsides to leaf. So Eden sank to grief, So dawn goes down to day. Nothing gold can stay."

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As my idol, Zakk Wylde once said: "Bored to death. Oh, I'm just bored to tears. Same old shit just different day and year. Killed myself but that got boring too. So beyond the point where it's not true." That's how it is every day at school. Nothing exciting really ever happens. Well, that one day we had a fight go down in the hallway. I was on the inner ring and I saw the whole thing. It really rattled me. I try not to think about it too often.

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Nicholas came into first hour with another new hair cut. This one was very modern and very fuck boy.

"I let Ryan cut my hair." He seemed happy, even though he kept stating that he was very cranky.

"Do you... Like it?" I tried to be a good friend. "I mean, I guess it looks cool."

"Yeah! I like it." He paused, "And I don't care what other people think, because I like it."

"Well, as long as you like it, then I like it."

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Second hour was nothing but the same ol' Algebra problems that make numerous kids cry.

I did notice that one of my class mates in that class is kinda cute. But only when he's looking down. His face is very boyish and kiddish, not sharp and stern, the way I normally like them. But, he has a nice build for his chest, nice arms and hands. His hair is pretty great, too; not as wonderful as Dex's, but it's still great.

I don't exactly know what to think of this new discovery, considering Brianna had a crush on him last year, and I'm just now noticing that he's attractive. Oh well, too young for me anyway.

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Third hour was nothing but panic, because my class hasn't finished decorating the class room for the stupid contest. I had a nice conversation about shoes with the football team's quarterback. He's not as big of a jerk as I thought he was, honestly. Oops.

Talking to him made me feel better about talking to Dex, mainly because he started the conversation and I didn't. I walked into lunch feeling pretty bad ass, only to be deflated towards the end.

I was walking around to different people, trying to talk to someone. No one really acted like they wanted me around, so that's why I just wandered. It's rough feeling that way, but it's not like I haven't felt it before. I feel it quite often, even though I don't want to. It just hits me at the most inconvenient times.

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Walking away from Brianna's locker after fifth hour has got to be one of my favorite points of the day. Some times, I'll run into Dex at the right time and talk to him, or I'll fall a few people behind him so I can admire his hair. Today happened to be the falling behind him. He had his hair in a pony tail and I think I melted. Don't get me wrong, I love it when his hair is down, but something about a low pony tail really makes it better.

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I've noticed that the days just start to blur, none really stand out. Nothing exciting ever happens in my days anymore. It's been so boring that I can't believe it's already November. Just last week it was marching season; where did the fun go? I suppose I'll have to make the excitement happen in my days, rather than sit and wait for it to come to me.❧